Jaybells, i’m really sorry about everything and having a lot of good and bad stuff at the same time is often, in my experience at least, more stressful than just one or the other.

Anyway. I actually have a lot of experience with cancer, because probably the best friend i ever had (i didn’t consider him my best friend but the person i did consider my best friend was kind of controlling and used the fact that i didn’t understand social stuff and generally not great), both of his parents had cancer, and now i have a pen pal with my mom’s friend’s kid and his dad has cancer. So i know it’s really hard, especially because you had said (i think) that your dad had been more supportive of queer stuff. I don’t really have advice, because really the only thing you can do is just support, unfortunately, and similar to the pen pal i can’t do much because it’s far away, but i’m really sorry, and i will be wishing the best for you and him. So as i tell him, just know that if you want any sort of fun requests or anything ask away, and if you need support let me know, and all that. I hope that (assuming the hospital is more of a short term thing than a longer-term treatment thing) he gets out soon, and if it’s the latter (well if it’s the first one too) that his treatment helps and there aren’t too many bad side effects *optional hugs* also i'm sorry that it came back. take care of yourself, just in general. *optional stuffie hugs*

I know schoolwork is important, but also if you do poorly don’t beat yourself up about it! And if you are struggling to keep up, maybe you could talk to the teachers?? Or if you have specific questions you could ask them? Or you said you made some friends, maybe you could ask them? 

Have fun learning guitar!! Just remember: slow practice and fundamentals (like scales, or for guitar practicing chords and going between them, most likely). Or, just have fun with it :P 

That’s awful about your brother though, i really hope that gets better. 

Either way, i hope more things keep going well, even if things aren’t all good. Sorry this took a bit to get out - as i said i’ve been sick. also hope you start feeling better! and ofc if i got anything wrong or you want to rant again go ahead :D

so sorry anastasia. <333

@anonymous: that all seems like a lot. *optional hugs* I'm sorry the girls in your grade are treating you annoyingly, that's stupid. as for your regatta, that's also frustrating :/ sometimes you screw up a little in sports and it sucks in the moment but also you're a really valuable member of your team! it sounds like your team wasn't very supportive today and that also sucks.

I doubt you're the problem!! hoenstly I think everyone on the CB is a genuinely interesitng person, you included. if your "friends" are flaking on you so much maybe you should talk to them or re-evaluate if it's a positive relationship for you. I don't think you're being dramatic; school and life can be hard to get through sometimes.

and yeah I get the feeling that you're sleepwalking through life. I'd say try to make small moments enjoyable: do you have a little extra free time before bed some day? read a book, go outside, write something, hang out with a pet, listen to music: something you find relaxing. take a moment to yourself and try to slow down.

@idk: dude, it's not ok to try to guess someone's identity like that. anonymous posted anonymously for whatever reason and you should respect that. you also posted under an anonymous name because you don't want to be associated with your CBsona—maybe because part of you knew this wasn't a helpful thing to do? like the supportive message is nice but overall not a great choice. maybe I'm misreading something here—if it was accidental somehow I'm sorry about this, but still...

NO YOU DEFINITELY ARE NOT. Every time I interact with you on the CB, you're continuously thoughtful, creative, and inspiring. And I mean sure I only see a snippet of who you are, but that snippet is amazing and I'm so glad I know you. I have no idea what prompted this, probably something specific irl, but we all make mistakes sometimes and you can't be a terrible person because you care about others too much. Give yourself some grace and care about your awesome self too, ok?

You are absolutely not a terrible person. You are amazing, kind, and creative and if anything makes you think otherwise, ignore it!! *virtual hug and cup of encouragementea*

No you're absolutely not!! I know I don't know you irl but I don't need to, I've known you for almost four entire years, and in that time you've been one of the brightest presences here on the the CB. You're kind, supportive, creative, and so much more. You've poured so much passion into your projects and our chat thread. Whenever I need to rant or complain you're there to offer me words of encouragement. I know it's hard not to be overly critical of ourselves (I certainly am), but just know that no one here thinks that way of you, and even if you're not perfect (which no one is) that doesn't mean you're a terrible person. Sending hugs <333

Ok so I know I'm a little late but I still wanted to say this:

You are in no way whatsoever a terrible person. I don't know you super well but I do know that you're kind, creative, thoughtful, resilient, and sooooo much more. You're not perfect because nobody is. Everyone's dealing with a lot of things too. But given what I do know about you, I suspect you tend to handle everything with a lot of poise. Everyone makes mistakes, big ones and little ones all the time but that's ok and the fact that you can recognize mistakes you make is already a whole lot better than a lot of other people can do. I know that there are so many people who love you and care about you, all of us here on the CB, I know you mentioned recently that things were going well with your partner... Anyway, you are so amazing and I'm so glad I've gotten to know you. You are an incredible person Jaybells