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submitted by Anonymous, age x, x
(October 15, 2020 - 1:43 pm)
(October 15, 2020 - 1:43 pm)
Hahaha I don't know what to do at this point. I am really struggling and might have to go back to the hospital. I just don't know what to do.
I'm sorry we had to edit your post, Jaybells. Please know that we and the CB community care about you and are here for you. - Admin
(November 7, 2024 - 12:24 am)
I have no idea what the admins had to edit but I'm really sorry you're going through so much. I hope everything turns out alright (or as okay as it can, I guess) and like the admins said, we really care about you. <3
(November 7, 2024 - 1:48 pm)
Lol most of what I had to say (like that I didn't want go go back anymore but that I was torn bc my partner wanted me to bc they're also struggling etc.)
(November 7, 2024 - 9:25 pm)
So sorry you have to go through that. I hope you'll be alright. *sends a big virtual hug <3*
(November 7, 2024 - 6:22 pm)
I'm so so sorry that things are going poorly. I don't really know what to say because most of it got edited (which, i'm sorry about that too, that feels awful) but have all the hugs you could ever desire and please don't hesitate to reach out again, even if it's just short saying you need a hug or something. any time you see this post, you can have hugs and support, and know that you're amazing and everyone here cares about you and i (and a lot of other CBers) look up to you and no matter what we'll be here for you. i can't stress enough how amazing you are and how much you've added to this place. I think you've responded to posts with how you're amazing with concerns about mistakes you've made and how you're struggling - i promise you're still amazing. everyone makes mistakes, especially when things are hard. and even if you don't think you're amazing (you are though), at the very least, i hope you can realize that you deserve to be happy.
anyway, idk if any of this helps, but i hope something in it at least makes you feel a bit better. on which note, if anything might make you feel a bit happier, like drawing or rereading a favorite book or something, i suggest seeing if that helps at all. it might not, idk, it's worth a try though. *all the optional hugs*
(November 8, 2024 - 2:43 pm)
DONT READ THIS IF YOU DONT WANT HUNGER GAMES SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!!
Something online recommended me a video of Finnick Odair's death (an edit). but i just started reading mockingjay and i honestly, wholeheartly, though that Finnick and Annie would have their own happy ending. BUT NO. suzanne collins HAD to kill him off but he was my favorite hunger games character BY FAR! you could even say i had a crush on him because of his looks and kind demeanor in the books and movies. so now i am very very sad about it VERY sad unusually sad and whenever i see a picture of him i tear up. i am a very emotional person,but finnick is just fiction and idk why i am so invested in him. and youtube shorts just aggravates this by sending me more edits- how he saved everyone but no one saved him. its now affecting me because i cant stop thinking about him, even though hes just someone in a book. i feel so bad and i just cant. but like why am i making such a big deal? it seems like a relative or smth died but HE IS JUST A CHARACTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY????????????????????Suzanne collins, revise the book. PLEASE!!!!!
(November 8, 2024 - 6:48 pm)
my mom: why are you crying
me: I'm tired because I haven't been able to be happy in the last two months
mom: you're not tired
me: ...
mom: tomorrow you're going to be happy
me: ok
next day
mom: you're lazy, you need to move sometimes
me: *starts crying again*
mom: why are you crying
me: you called me lazy
mom: no I didn't, you're being dramatic
(November 9, 2024 - 3:38 pm)
*gives you an (optional) virtual hug*
It's awful that you're being told those things :(
Perhaps you could try to find something, anything, that would make you happier?
(November 9, 2024 - 11:07 pm)
i'm so sorry. you're not being dramatic, and even if you are, you are allowed to have feelings. i will try to write more later, but i'm so sorry. it's also not your fault if you're sad. also, we're always here if you need to rant.
(November 10, 2024 - 7:05 pm)
I got diagnosed with OCD and now I'm taking medication. My mom explained the situation to my brother, and he said it was "the most mentally ill messed up stuff I've ever heard" and was calling it "goofy."
(November 9, 2024 - 4:33 pm)
*sends optional virtual hug*
I hope your sibling doesn't do something like that again
(November 10, 2024 - 7:36 am)
i'm so sorry, that's awful. It's not goofy. It's already a really hard situation, and it sounds like he's making it harder. i hope the medicine helps, and that your brother doesn't say those things again.
(November 10, 2024 - 7:07 pm)
I'm so sorry. You're not mentally ill, messed up, goofy, or any of that. I have OCD, but I'm not taking any medications (because I haven't gotten any prescribed yet). If you are, you are just doing the right thing for your mind and body. I hope you can continue to take any medications you need without feeling guilt or shame. Maybe talk to your brother about what OCD is, and explain why it's not "goofy".
(November 11, 2024 - 3:18 pm)
I had a certamen tournament yesterday (certamen is like quiz bowl but with Latin/classics-themed questions) which my best friend couldn't come to and I hate to say this but I just really need to get it off my chest... I enjoyed it more without her. She's someone who's very hard on herself so every single time I start the tournament knowing and dreading that I'm going to be entirely responsible for her mental health throughout the entire day. If she's gone quiet or she runs off or she has that expression it's my job to ask her if she's okay and comfort her and give her a pep talk and make her smile again-- and that's a big burden to put on someone already in a stressful situation. I'm not blaming her for having these feelings of course, like I said the competition is very intense, but I'm not sure how I feel about having the entirety of someone else's mental state pushed upon me without a say in the matter and having to suppress my own feelings of self-worth and doubt. And to make matters worse I don't even know how to comfort her. She never comes to team practice and rarely studies and I don't know how to break it to her that it makes sense she's not doing as well as the rest of us who do. And yesterday when she wasn't there... it was just so much more fun without constantly worrying, "Is S okay? How does she feel about that round? Should I be checking up on her? Am I a bad friend for being happy about my performance? Am I a bad friend for not comforting her enough? If I try to talk to her is she going to lash out and make me feel bad for doing well?" Certamen is supposed to be fun and when you're scared to do well in order to protect someone else's feelings it's just not. I know I'm coming off as cruel here and I truly do feel terrible but I just need to tell someone this.
(November 10, 2024 - 10:22 am)
tbh, you're completely fair here. while you're right it's not her fault for having feelings, you shouldn't have to deal singlehandedly with them. certainly you shouldn't have to worry about doing well because it will hurt her feelings. especially not if she doesn't study, and even more so if she doesn't come to practice. idk if if have any advice, but you're definitely not in the wrong here. also, please don't make yourself do poorly because of her! i get being upset when you do poorly, but i don't think she should be making you feel bad for doing well. that's not very fair.
side note, certamen sounds really cool.
(November 10, 2024 - 7:02 pm)