You walk the sandy shores below

I soar through the twinkling stars

You trek through the melting snow

I watch your tiny frame from behind bars

And every day we are apart

I fall deeper into that swirling hole

The loneliness shatters my heart

It ruptures my fragile soul

You said you loved me

As we danced across the grass

Then I got down on one knee

And you ran away, my lass

I could never track you down

You sprinted far too fast

In my own sorrow I drowned

And from this world I passed

I gazed as you took the hand of your beloved

Murmured the binding promise; “I do”

Tears crawl down my cheeks in your stead

Could I ever have been anything to you?

short one XD

flight

you

jumped off a cliff one day

and i

followed you into the dark

but when i landed

a silhouette against the sun was all i saw. 

Lost in a Sea of Tears:

I am

Struggling against waves

of

heavy black,

And

No matter how hard I fight,

My limbs

Begin to sink under the weight of it all.

And

No matter how hard I cough and wheeze,

I never

Will escape the water that rises around me;

Fills 

My mouth, my throat, my lungs-- Stinging

As it

Crawls up my nose and burns even more

It hurts, yes

Everything does, when one is lost in the Sea of Tears. 

Perfection

You want me to be perfect

To be better than best in all my classes

To be beautiful, yet not coveted

To always be patient and loving and agreeable

Well, sometimes I want to shout

And you can’t deal with that

To you I must always be a lady

No matter my own pain

And I’m lying on the floor

Tears slipping through my clenched eyes

Turning away so you can’t see

Somehow

You manage to make me feel trash

About myself

Without uttering a word

You are always asking 

If any boys have caught my eye

No, they have not

But there is this one girl I admire

She is so strong, and brave, and (com)passionate

Her scars are less visible than they seem

In my dreams, we dance through the stars

Free together

But that is just foolishness and I

would never let you find that

(freakish) part of myself

You would use it as a weapon

Attacking me

Berating me with your words

And though I try my hardest

I can't be perfect and

You're not satisfied  

You don’t know you’re doing it

You know it’s all in my head

You love the guinea pig more than me

He is perfect

In a way I could never be

for the prompt of inbox:

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you let your inbox fill.

one by one by one by one until

you’re at one-thousand:

one thousand problems staring you in the face

one thousand things you should have said years ago

one thousand things you never should have done.

(tickticktickticktick time’s

running out)

and you pass them all by, let

the little red number get bigger bigger bigger

the ding and slowly growing unread

unprocessed pile of

things

do not mean anything to you anymore,

do they.

one day you’ll face your demons.

but it’s not today.

but didn’t anyone ever tell you that procrastination

never-

not

ever-

leads

to success?

didn’t anyone ever tell you that just because your head

is in the sand

doesn’t mean the world won't just

pass you by? 

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(Sometimes I wonder)

Am I better invisible

Or being flooded with questions?

Is it better for people not to notice

I'm gone 

Or is it best if people clamour around me

Asking

Prying 

Wondering where I've been

Just for me to shrug it off and grin sheepishly

Awkwardly

Digging for something to say that never comes out

Because

I'm better invisible

unseen and

unremembered, right?

(Just a thought) 

Maybe 

Memories

We will never forget

All our friends.

Even if the world ends,

We still have memories.

I will keep the memories

Locked in my imaginary safe.

I will keep them away

From going different ways.

They will stay with me,

I shall never lose them.

Those I have told,

Say, "We'll see."

They all think

That I cannot do it.

I shall prove them wrong

And never split

from them.

I shall knit

Mittens of my memories

So I can take them everywhere

And Anywhere

I go.

The end

I hope you like it. Admin, don't remove this giant space. It's there for a reason.

Sometimes

I fall

Everything whooshes by 

But I

Don't care how fast I'm going

It doesn't matter

If I'm almost all the way down

I don't look

And I convince myself it's okay

It won't hurt

So I hurtle down faster

Watching

The stars shining so splendidly up above

Admiring

The moon in all her silvered beauty 

Wondering

About a golden life-giver sun, blazing

Noticing

The way clouds fleet by in passing breezes

And through it all

I fall

Down

Down

Down

Towards the ground

Towards something

Maybe 

But maybe there's nothing

Maybe there will never be anything beneath me 

And for the rest of forever

(Even though it's impossible)

I can pretend that I can fly

Beyond the light

On this side of the window

I see shining eyes

Piercing through the dark at me;

And when the lights click off

I swear the silence shelters

Something that's holding its breath

Hiding under the cover of pitch

That is this dark room

And I wonder

If it would be scared more than me

If I let a blood-curdling scream

Rip from my throat this instant

But I know I'm alone, so I don’t,

Instead banished to a Realm of What-ifs.