So this is super late, but if you still want it... also idk how helpful it'll be. I kinda veered off to talk about grief in general Ig. And a lot about my own experience. Idk if you'll take anything from that, so. Idk if this'll help or hurt more.

I think you said your dog is only going to live for two more weeks max, and it's been over two weeks now... I don't want to assume, but either way, I'm really sorry :'(

Basically, I just wanted to say that it's totally okay to feel sad. Your situation mirrors ours a few years ago---we lost my grandma years back, but it's not really something you ever really get over (I mean, it gets better, but like there's still that absence of that great amazing person, if you know what I mean)---and then our dog---my parents' first baby, who has been there, as you said, ever since I came home from the hospital, got.... old. I mean, it was gonna happen eventually. It was just sorta shocking because he's been with us, through so much, and he's the best doggy that ever was, and now he's old and he's not gonna live much longer. And suddenly we were like, we didn't give him enough treats, didn't brush him or take him on walks as much as we used to. We got busy with our lives and... well, yeah. But I think there are always gonna be those regrets, and I think that it's fine, because you definitely love your dog, and I think your dog loves you, and... well, I'm assuming, but I think your dog's happy. Been happy. If that's any comfort, idk. But also in those weeks---actually, years---my parents and my brother cried... a LOT. Ig I didn't fully understand it at the time, still don't, actually, so I didn't cry. Because I felt like he was still with us, and I felt like he lived a happy life, and he was struggling near the end so it was his time, and that was good. And I think it's okay to not cry, too. There's nothing wrong with you if you don't. But yeah. Our dogs are a really important part of our family, and it... really hurts to lose them, especially when they've been with us, lived life with us, for so long.

My parents still cry about him, and about my grandma. And that's okay. Even though it's been years, as I said, there's always gonna be that absence. There's always gonna be a loss of someone who once was here, and now... isn't. But that someone will always be with you, no matter what. You carry their memory in your brain, in your heart. My dog's bed and food and water is all in the exact same place, even though it's been years, but it's our way of feeling like he's next to us, Ig. I feel like if we moved it, the house would feel... really empty.

I think your whole family will be grieving, so I'm just gonna say that it's not great to let that grief sit and consume you. Live life, maybe share memories if you feel up to it. Mourn, but don't let it be all you know. I think you mentioned you have a puppy/dog now---give that dog lots of attention, maybe? All your regrets... make sort of right by them by making sure you don't have them for that dog? Irdk how much this is helping and how much this is hurting. Idk. Um. Just... I'm really sorry you lost your dog, and... it's a really horrible thing. And *hugs (if wanted) and love and treats to help you and your family get through it*

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Hello, my friends. What think you of earwigs?

All I wanna do is belt out Benson Boone's "Beautiful Things" 24/7, but I can't when my parents are home. But when they're NOT home, I sing so loudly at the scream-singin' parts.

Kinda random but does anyone want to co-write something with me? It doesn't have to be long, I just need something to work on