@Hawkstar, I totally agree with that!! Thank you for sharing, and sorry about your friends. :(  Some of my family and friends are kinda the same way too (tho not as terrible as that! They're not openly against gay or trans ppl or whatever, they just kinda don't rly include them... which is also bad in its own way), and I think I'm only different bc I read so many books from characters that are in the LGBTQIA+ community and stuff so I understand more (and also bc if I hadn't, I would've had no idea what any of this stuff is so than you books!), despite not being LGBTQIA+ myself, and it's absolutely terrible what ppl have to go through just by being themselves!! At my school, ppl go around calling other ppl "gay" and whoever gets called "gay" acts all offended bc it's supposedly a bad thing?? But it's not! That's just who you are and ppl shouldn't make fun of it like that! Alas, I was too shy to say anything anything about it except with my friends, and even then, no one seemed to really care about it anyways!!

You're probably not a bad person!! Even if you do bad things, or feel bad feelings, or think bad thoughts, that doesn't make you a bad person. If you feel guilt or remorse from "bad" stuff you do, you're really probably not a bad person. And it's ok to think bad thoughts or feel feelings, it's natural, we all do, but just try not to do the bad thoughts and stuff. Idk. Have you ever read Lost in the Sun? It's totally really good, and the main character likes to draw his bad thoughts out. It might help confiding in someone you trust if you want, which may also help with feeling like no one's there for you. You can also always confide in us, anonymous or not, if you want, and I can't speak for everyone, but I promise I, at least, won't judge you! And anyways, people are complex, I don’t think there's such a thing as a "bad" or "good" person. You're still a person, and you still deserve good things! You don't deserve to either be lonely, or feel lonely!! <3

I've been there. sorry you're feeling like that <3

I'm not good at advice, but (ik everyone says this, but) you're not a bad person. Bad people don't worry about whether or not they're bad people. I don't think there are bad people, anyway, only people who do bad things. so even if you have done some things you regret, you can always make better decisions in the future. it's okay, though, if you make a mistake---no one is ever going to be perfect. what matters is that you're trying to be better, not that you are always perfect. that's what makes you a good person.

oh, and remember that you're not lesser because you're lonely, or because you have any mental health issues to deal with. there is always a reason for insecurity---even if you don't have major trauma, little things in your childhood can really affect how confident you are when you're older (idk how old you are, but this is true regardless). you are not lonely because you're somehow incompatible or dysfunctional or incapable of making connections. you're lonely because of a series of situations beyond your control.  i don't know if this is a particular demon of yours, but i heard this and it greatly altered how i perceive myself. maybe it helps, maybe it doesn't.

I'm not an expert on friends or closeness or human connection, being in want of friends myself. but one thing i will say is that you should always be friends with people you like---by which i mean, don't keep hanging out with people you don't click with out of loneliness. they might be fine people, but you don't have to keep spending time with them if you don't actually want to. it's probably better for everyone involved, since it's hard to connect to someone who isn't very excited about hanging out with you in the first place. i don't know if you've been in this situation, but i have, so i'll just throw that out there.

but don't give up hope that you'll find your people. and remember there are lots of people who are in the same situation, or were once. you're not alone.

like i said, i'm not very good at this, so idk how useful any of this is. this comment turned out longer than i expected... but regardless---  

we're here for you if you ever want to talk or vent or anything at all. the CB might be a bunch of online strangers, but we are a bunch of exceptionally kind and quirky strangers, and we won't judge you. really hope you feel better soon <33

I can give you an explanation of moles if you like! If anything isn't clear or you have any questions, just ask :)

-Saying you have 1 mole of an element is like saying you have a dozen eggs. The phrase "a dozen" means a group of 12; similarly, the phrase "1 mole" means a group of 6.02 x (10 to the 23rd power) atoms or molecules. 6.02 x 10^23 (I'm writing it that way so as not to have to type out "ten to the 23rd power" every time) is also known as Avogadro's constant.

-6.02 x 10^23 is the number of hydrogen atoms that it takes to have 1 gram of hydrogen.

-Let's look at another element. Helium, for instance, has a relative atomic mass of 4, whereas hydrogen has a relative atomic mass of 1. Thus, helium must be four times as heavy as hydrogen. Therefore, if 6.02 x 10^23 atoms of hydrogen weighs 1 gram, the same number of helium atoms weighs four times that amount, or 4 grams. So one mole of helium atoms weighs 4 grams. 

-You can use the above reasoning to find out the mass of 1 mole of any element - find the relative atomic mass of an element, and that number will be the number of grams that 1 mole weighs. It gets a little more complicated if you're trying to find out the mass of 1 mole of an element's molecules. All you need to do, though, is find out the formula mass. For instance, with bromine, the relative atomic mass is 80. A bromine molecule contains two atoms, each one of which weighs 80, so the molecule weighs 80 + 80 = 160 units. So a mole of bromine molecules weighs 160 grams.

The whole concept of moles is really tricky, but maybe this will help make it simpler! I don't really have any advice about the stressfulness of school, but I hope it gets easier and simpler, and if you have any questions about any of what you're studying, I can try to help if you want. (There are also lots of really good resources online, especially for math.) Or if you just need to talk, I'm here for that too :) For writers' block... well, sometimes it helps me to go to bookstores or libraries and look at books and read their summaries, because it fires my imagination and makes me want to create something similar. Writing a summary, the kind that appears on inside front covers, for your novel can also help.

I'm so sorry about your allergies/cold thing! Try and take quick timeouts now and then, to do nothing or listen to music or something else that you might enjoy, and eat well and drink lots of tea (am I sounding too grandmotherly??? oh no I think I am - I've metamorphosed into your dear old Granny Poinsettia in a rocking chair - and now I'm just sounding silly but hopefully it's funny anyway.) Anyway, long story short, I really hope everything gets better for you! I'm positive you'll be able to handle this - you strike me as a really smart, resilient person :)

Dear the Incorrigible Optimist Zealatom (bc this feels like it needs that kind of introduction), sorry about everything you're going through! I'm in middle school, but my math is two grades higher, so I hope I can help (even though I only know about moles from What If? Serious Scientific Answers to Absurd Hypothetical Questions), but what the whole accelerated and ultra accelerated grades had to do in order to learn 1 grade in a few weeks of summer was Khan Academy if you've ever heard of that? It's really ultra helpful and I totally recommend it, they explain everything in a very easy way, then make sure you know it. Could you also ask your teachers for extra help? And... I just looked it up so excuse me if I get this wrong, but isn't a molar mass M=Molar Mass, m=mass of a substance (in grams), n=number of moles of a substance? M=m/n.  What is it you need help with? But I don't know anything about this subject rly so... feel free to ignore me oc!  Which ACK GTG I'M LATE BYE

Well, I have two groups of friends (and one friend who's in both groups), the group that have been my friends since quite literally FOREVER, and the friends who I rly met in these past two years. But one of those friends (my BFF) moved, so I don't have to juggle her with my other friends, and the other friends in the first group are fine with the second group, but usually I sit at lunch with the second group and sometimes ppl in the first group will come too if they want, though usually they sit with THEIR second group. And in class I just play/talk with whoever, and we have assigned seating so... if we have to partner up, I also kinda just partner with whoever. But that's probably not helpful for you... so let's talk about my friend who's in both groups. Let's call her N, and basically she was with my first group and then some of the first moved and some made a second group. N is very social. I'm not. So she found a second group (btw, just to be clear, I love both my first and second groups, they're all rly good friends). I didn't totally click with them at first, so she would devise a Recess play schedule so sometimes she'd play with me, sometimes with them, but as you can tell, this was fine but wasn't amazing. So... we all became friends. Probably not helpful for you also, sorry! I'll just stop with my irl experiences and think. Maybe it'd be cool if A had a group of friends, not just you, too, right? So when you're with your other group, A would be fine. But this seems obvious. I don't know how your school is, but I think it'd be best if you just interacted naturally with both groups whenever you see them? Like, if you're walking with your existing group and see A, say hi, and then keep walking? Or... I know I said no more irl, but N made this new friend T, who's also in my class but not rly friends with me. Sometimes we'll be partnering up, and usually N does it with me, but sometimes she'll say, hey, can I partner with T this time?, and I'll be like sure! And N spends time with me at school and T at basketball? And... ok, sry, I don't think I have any good advice rn. Maybe have activities with A, talk with both groups, be honest (and make sure they know you don't favor one over the other), put away time for both? Ugh, but that sounds exhausting. Just be natural, ig?? Sry about the advice.

idk. I'll think this over in my sleep.