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CBversary!!!!
Hi! Andd you can already tell this is gonna be one... long... post :P
So it's my CBversary!!!!!! Which means I've been on here for one whole year now!!!! Which is so sorta crazy for me to think about... but anyways. I'm actually not sure if this post goes on DtE or somewhere else, but I'm just gonna do DtE. :D
It goes without saying (so I'm gonna say it >:D) that I love all you lizards, so much. Thank you so much for making me laugh every day with your ingenuity and creativity (okay, and chaotic nature ;) ), for making me look at the world with wonder and awe with your brilliance and awesomeness, for lifting me up whenever I feel down -- all of you are so supportive and kind and loving and caring and please never change <3 and please remember that no matter what, you are valid, and we love you SOOOOO much *your favorite treat and virtual hugs if wanted and sending all the love your way love y'all (/p)*
The CB is such an amazing gem and thank you so much to the admins and webmaster and everyone else involved (and Cricket magazine) for making it happen!!!! Seriously, you all are amazing!
I'm gonna say thank you again (to CBers and admins) for putting up with my lonnnnnggggg, 90% tangential posts, and my twice as long rants about my squish, then my crush, then whenever I felt lonely and frustrated; thank you for being there and listening (and especially helping me through my first year at a new school where I knew nobody in my grade) and reading my -- I was going to say monstrosities but I suddenly feel bad about saying that after watching Nimona. Speaking of, you all should totally watch Nimona!!!! I admit I went into it thinking, pfft, it couldn't possibly be better than the book!, but it was maybe better than the book (though keep in mind I read the book a little less than a year ago), and if not, at least just as good!!!!
Anyways. Where was I? Oh yeah, rants. Wait, tangential rants!!!! I just went into a tangential rant!!!! I just proved my point by coincidence!!!! :DDDDD <--- idk why I'm so excited about this I just am.
anyways. Thank you for putting up with my over-fondness of words. And parentheses. And everything in general. Really, also thank you to all my teachers over the years who put up with that and told me to change and learn to write shorter essays. I'm (sorta) sorry to say that at this point, it's all just getting longer >:D
oh and thank you for humbling me because everyone around me is always like "you're the best at poetry and writing and stuff!!!" and I'm always winning all these awards and I started believing it and then I stumble across y'all masters of the written word and I'm like... woah. (in a good way though!!! It's like... idk how to say this without sounding cheesy, but such an honor to read everyone's work??? It's amazing)
This is already super long, so I'm just going to say thank you for introducing me to:
- the lgbtqiap+ community (idk how I missed all the Pride flags on top of like every single building and in every single store and on all the flagpoles in all the parks and more (like seriously, every single flagpole I looked at, there was a Pride flag!!!! It was awesome!! Except for yesterday I was at a gas station and they just had the American flag on the pole... but besides that!!!) these past years during Pride month (or how I missed that spoilers for PJO & HoO Nico was gay even though I read all the books a million times over... :/). Also Sofia by Clairo was literally playing at the department store I will keep saying that on here because that was awesome!!!)
- some of my favorite music artists: mxmtoon (my favorite artist ever I've never really had that before :0), Lyn Lapid (Peri), AJR, KC Katalbas (pangolin), The Lightning Thief Musical that counts >:D (Rainbow), Martina McBride (Poinsettia), Lisa McHugh (Amethyst), Jenny Nuo, I'll stop now but there are a ton more (and this isn't counting songs like Hidden in the Sand/Spring and a Storm (Lord Entropy) and Re: Your Brains and Ep 4. Important (Phoenix Tears?) and Sofia (Peri) and Rain in Soho/Sudden Oak Death (LE again) and Wonderland and Derniere Danse (indirectly by Poinsettia?) and Sonata no. 16 K545 1st movement in C Major (Sine) and Leonard Cohen (Peri/pangolin?) and pam pam pam/Cinnamon/Matches (all pangolin again <3) and theme of really cool bird and I really have to stop--)
- sea sheep and snakes in hats and Cupcake and Muffin (*squeals*) (all Darkvine), dino comics and blow-dried cows (both Hex), prob more stuff I'm not remembering rn
- some of my favorite books/authors: The Hawk's Way (Peregrine Falcon), HPMoR & UNSONG & The Etymologicon (concept and preview at least since I still haven't found it irl :/) & The Way of Kings (all Hex <3), Molly Knox Ostertag and ND Stevenson (got their autographs!!!), On A Sunbeam (my comfort read <3), prob more I'm forgetting right now
- some of my favorite TV shows: The Owl House (my favorite TV show) and Amphibia (just Anne is annoying hoping for a (larger) character arc; Hex)
- NaNoWriMo (and thank you again for keeping me regularly writing with contests and RPs and my ski lodge)
- being INFP-t, because reading all those paragraphs that describe me in every sentence was idk so validating?? (especially seeing "self-isolating" as a personality trait lol) like I already knew I felt those ways but I didn't know that was actually... a thing?? Idk.
- Jellycats!!! (Blackfooted Bobcat) Mer and Gian Furlough Acorn Harlowe and hua... :DDDD
- that awesome scrumble recipe Seadragon gave me a while ago
- using "XD" and "lol" and ":/" and ":p" and ":P" and ">:)" and ":0" and "o_O" and I would go on...
Anyways. Yeah. CBversary. Long posts. That's me :D
I might do something else to celebrate but for now I'm open for Q&A :) and also I'll compliment anyone who posts on this thread because I super want to compliment and thank everyone now but... yeah :P long posts.
submitted by CelineBurning Bright, age <333/3, CBversary!!! :DD
(June 22, 2024 - 1:51 pm)
(June 22, 2024 - 1:51 pm)
Noo I forgot the picture--
Feiya says AGEMK. Age mmk?
(June 29, 2024 - 11:28 am)
Here I am finally - sorry it took me so long to reply, I kept forgetting that I hadn't yet :/ Tysm, also for being one of the most dedicated readers of the solo write :D Aww ty, I sTiLl haven't settled on just one location, so it's always changing... Yayy yes Te Regalo and Confessions and Jo Dee Messina :DDD (sorry, my keyboard emojis are coming out in force lol)
Aww your dog sounds so, so, so sweet - like the best dog imaginable. I loved all the stories about him, and I'm up for more any time!! He chased away a pack of coyotes? That's impressive :0 And in the picture he looks so cute too (whoa he was big, though). And you're right, his expression in that photo is utterly sweet <3 Anyway, thanks for telling me about him!
(July 6, 2024 - 8:46 pm)
Yess I love him!!! Umm let's see there're lots of funny stories about him... like once maybe five/six years ago, our neighbors called animal control on my dog bc he was barking too much :0 and then they called the literal police on him, and wait I actually forgot if it was the police officer or animal control officer who did this, but when they rung our doorbell to deliver the complaint about our dog, my family was just like *indignant shock* and my dog was just like *sweetest thing ever* and the officer was like, awww, how could your dog ever do something like this he's so sweet and adorable!!!! haha. And the best part is that now, years later, those same neighbors we think got a dog of their own that likes to bark well into the night... and I'll have it known that we don't call the authorities on their dog! But I love my street 'cuz like all my neighbors are dog people so my whole street is full of dogs...
he also used to jump up on my bed and sleep with me, and he liked to jump on my brother's bed too but he always did it while we were at school and when we came back my brother would be like NOOO 'cuz his bed would be covered with white fur (he shed a LOT, like I'm literally still finding his fur everywhere around the house (last week I found a bunch) and it's been two years since he passed)!! And he LOVED attention, like he would literally follow us around the house asking to be pet, and he also does this adorable pyr paw where he continually paws at us until we give him a scratch on the ear or smth.
also, even though we called him good horse, he hated horses. Like my dad took him hiking and there were horses on the trail and he did NOT like them. Oh, and he hated his little booties too, like when we put them on his feet, he would limp around like he was hurt or something but he's literally just wearing shoes!! And he hates fireworks, so when 4th of July comes... I found a picture of him being like, why's there a frog around my neck?!?? XD
(July 9, 2024 - 12:35 pm)
Happy CBversary! I cannot believe it's been a year already >:)
I feel just the same way about the CB, it's such an amazing beautiful place that brightens the lives of everyone who discovers it... And its amazingness is partly thanks to you! You're always super fun and friendly, and you have so much enthusiasm and sense of humor - and I always enjoy reading your tangents and just talking with you in general! I hope you stay on the CB for a long time to come :)
For Q&A, well, I've been wondering this for a while: how did you think of your name?
(June 25, 2024 - 7:26 am)
Poinsettia!!! Hello! And yesss it's so unreal!!! And thank you so much!!! Same goes to you; you're always so fun and positive and caring, and all your posts make me look at the world and see so much beauty that I didn't notice there before, and thank you for that!!! You're really a beautiful person, and I hope you (and many others here) stay for a long, long time, and if you do leave, that you all make sure to drop in now and then and say hi! And your writing and poetry are amazing -- yours was the first solo write I ever joined, and I'll remember the Dragons and the Unicorns (and Shyama, who I think was my first OC not turned AE (on the CB) ever?) forever! Thank you for all your vivid descriptions of Mexico too, it sounds like a beautiful place (looking past... y'know. Everything else. :( )!! And yesss Jacarandas!! Actually, where I live, there are lots of Jacaranda-lined streets, and it's really beautiful to drive through and everything!! And I kEeP forgetting to tell you but tysm for saying (on the CBers as Songs thread -- that I think you created :D) that Home from Frozen II and Happy Girl by Martina McBride remind you of me because those are two of my favorite songs ever!!!
and how did I think of my name? Well, here's the long story >:D
so I joined the CB through Kyngdom, and in Kyngdom, I created an OC named Celine (who's now my AE). Ce's a Chinese water dragon, and idk I just thought Celine sounded like a good name for a Chinese water dragon :D then I discovered the Chatterbox, and for the first week or so I was on here, I went by the name "Celine" because that was the name I went by on Kyngdom, because I thought you were supposed to go by the name of the character you were roleplaying as (which, you can if you want to, but you don't have go if you don't want to). My name's not actually Celine, btw (although I identify with it quite a bit now, so whenever I see the name irl, and remember it's like an actual name, I'm always a bit shocked :) ). So yeah I was just going around the CB, using the name Celine, but then I was like, wow, everyone else has such a creative name, that's so cool!!, and then Celine Burning Bright just popped into my head out of nowhere! I stylize it "CelineBurning Bright", partly because I like the way it looks, partly because it doesn't fit in the name box with two spaces. I like to say it's the perfect name for me because:
- Celine is also the name of my AE, who's a Chinese water dragon, and since I'm Chinese, and love dragons...
- CelineBurning Bright just came to me randomly, and since I'm random, that's cool! It also just came to me, and that happens to me LOT
- I'm fairly sure I got "burning bright" from that poem The Tyger by uhh I think William Carlos Williamson, which is an awesome poem first of all and definitely read it if you haven't, but also I love poems and I write poetry and I love tigers and my dad introduced me to that poem I think, and...
- burning bright also calls to mind a candle in the dark for me, and I would like to be a hope in the dark, or a light that guides people or smth
- burning bright also makes me think of enthusiasm and energy, which I have BUCKETLOADS of :D
- burning bright also ALSO makes me think of passion, which I also have tons of
- burning bright is also the name of the third section of Fahrenheit 451, and Fahrenheit 451 is such a good book, and also it's a really thoughtful book, which I think way too much like I can stare at a wall for an hour and be perfectly entertained because I'm thinking (and have done this). Also, 3 is my favorite number :D
- my initials, CBB, are related to irl stuff
- it maxes out the name box, and I am a master at maxing out word limits >:D I write... a lot... and always have :D
(June 29, 2024 - 12:42 pm)
...I think I just posted my response to Hex over here... sorry everyone, that's what that was... ://// please ignore that
(June 28, 2024 - 8:28 pm)
Happy CBversary Celine!!! I'm way too late for this, sorry. I'm so, so glad you're a part of the CB. You're so active and fun and your posts always bring a smile to my face <3 Your writing and poetry are great! Be confident with the knowledge that everyone here(Well, at least me) started from scratch. And hey, I'm also a INFP-T as well. I get the feeling, don't worry too much :D
Alright short post because I've got emergency stuff to attend to: For Q&A, What would you aspire to achieve in the near future?
(June 28, 2024 - 10:07 pm)
Thank you Zeal!! And yess INFP-t!! You're such a presence on the CB; your writing is amazing -- your robot stuff as Ultimatum still astonish me, and ofc there's your solo write, which is awesome beyond words, and I think I remember you (maybe??) posting a little ink drawing (like a drawing of ink) on the Art Posting thread before, which was like really I LOVE that drawing SM it looks so enchanted!!!! Also -- I think it was you -- your handwriting is really so comfy to look at... Ik that's a weird compliment, but like I look at it and I'm immediately comforted?? And thank you again for the written picturing -- I love it sm and I loved reading everyone else's too!
btw, yesterday while looking for something else, I stumbled upon the thread you made a while back where you experimented with all those fonts and the alphabet and stuff... that was so cool...
and wow that is... a really great question. Um. What would I aspire to achieve? Well, the answer I should put is I aspire to socialize more at the weeklong camp I'm leaving for later today, because this year my BFF isn't going, and so we can't avoid socializing together, and I don't have any friends there. So the answer I should put is I aspire to put myself out there and make some new friends. But I really don't want to do that. I mean, if people are nice, then sure, I'll like talk to them, but I'm not gonna make myself interact with them if I don't want to simply for other people's sakes, because I hate doing that. So... I'm back to square one. What do I aspire to acheive? What I really want to do at this camp is have fun. I don't want to spend the whole time missing my BFF, or on the CB/technology; I want to enjoy the whole experience and be there and have fun! I don't want my parents to tell me to try more, to socialize, that it's human nature to interact, that they're introverts too so they know what I'm feeling and can't I just do this one thing, and I don't want them thinking that I can't do this because I'm shy -- I'm choosing not to socialize, and it's not at all because I'm shy, which I'm like the opposite of, but just because I'd rather not. Ofc, I can't control my parents actions, so I aspire to not let them get to me, to hold on to who I know I am and who I know it's okay to be, and to enjoy myself at this camp. :)
(June 29, 2024 - 1:01 pm)
CELINEEE *tackle hugs* HAPPY CBVERSARY!! i simultaneously can't believe it's been a year, and feel like i've known you forever :O *environmentally-friendly red-and-cream-colored confetti* *gives you a (hypothetical?) cricket jellycat (i don't think those exist? but. they should.)*
everything you said about the CB is just. yes. it's such an incredible place, full of incredible people and their incredible writing and art (and tangents? :P). like you said, it's opened my mind so much - to the lgbtqiap+ community, to all different types of media, to nanowrimo - and helped form like every major pillar of my personality :P also, i'm so glad you liked my music recs!! because YESS KC Katalbas and Lyn Lapid and boygenius and Lor and mxmtoon and like every other artist/song you mentioned :DD
aNYWAY, i'm so glad i've gotten to know you over this last year!! i think our first interaction was either on Kyngdom or the endangered species thread you made? but either way, once i saw how enthusiastic you were about the environment (and just how enthusiastic you were in general :p), i was like, yep, this person is awesome, i really hope they stick around!! and, at risk of stating the obvious, you did stick around, and i'm so glad you did :) you're so friendly and creative and caring and always have something interesting or funny or kind to say, and you've brought so much to the CB <33
your writing is also amazing! i really admire how consistent you are with participating in the poetry contest, and i just enjoy reading your writing in general :) it's so descriptive and full of emotion and idk it's just incredible <33 also i promise i haven't forgotten about your ski lodge!! i've been really busy, but it's amazing, and i promise i'll catch up soon (and leave a really long and rambling comment about how amazing it is - you can't stop me >:D) <33
okay this is TOO LONG, so i'll end this here. happy CBversary!! i hope you'll stick around for many years to come :)) <33
Here is the Confetti Angel created by CBer Viola many years ago. I think she'd be honored to know that she's still spreading joy for Chatterbox celebrations.
Admin
(June 30, 2024 - 4:34 pm)
ahh the confetti angel!! i'm so honored to have my post blessed by the legendary confetti angel herself XD thank you, Admin, for digging this up, and to Viola?, of course, for the original drawing :D *more confetti for everyone*
(June 30, 2024 - 7:11 pm)
*gasp* the confetti angel!
(July 6, 2024 - 7:40 pm)
pangolin!!!!! Thank you!!!!! And all hail the Confetti Angel, thank you @admins and @Viola? for that vibrant spark of joy!!!! I know, time and perception of time is so weird!!! Ackk yess cricket jellycats should totally exist!! They only have a cricket ball jellycat, which is surprisingly actually really cute?? :DD and yesss to everything else you said too haha! I think I'm using an excessive amount of exclamation marks, but I've been hyper ever since I got back from camp, so :D
Our first interaction was on Kyngdom, which I remember because you were the first CBer who welcomed me on here, and thank you for that (and thank you to the admins (who also welcomed me) too!!)!!! You're such an amazing person -- you're funny and brilliant and welcoming and kind, and you write the most mindblowing, breathtaking poetry, and I still remember your piece of prose from the Stylish Writing contest, which was just... wow... wow wow wow wow. Also, save the pangolins!!! I remember your introduction post made it into the magazine letterbox, explaining about pangolins, which is awesome!! And I've also been meaning to tell you, there's a google doodle Valentine's Game with I think they're pangolins that I think is really cute, if you want to check it out!
Tangent, but since you were talking about enthusiasm for saving the environment, I love to tell people "straws are for suckers" :DD yes, this is my sense of humor. Blame my dad please!
"just how enthusiastic you were in general"... yup, yup, that's me :P overload of enthusiasm. I get excited really easily and have to put in a thousand exclamation marks to satisfy all my excitement haha.
Also I just realized I think you just finished your first year of high school... which means you'll be starting your second year of high school after this summer... irdk, that's just crazy to think about for me :0 yeah. Good luck with... uh... sophomore year(?)!!! :D
but wow thank you again, this really made my day, and... no srsly you're amazing, so yeah!! And don't worry about the ski lodge, though actually I'm worrying about it because whatever plot I make up for it, I always spontaneously throw something in while writing that totally veers away from the plot, then to tie it back into the plot I give loads of complicated reasoning, and now I'm really just waiting to see when everything's gonna fall apart... um but yeah thanks!!!!!
*ends post awkwardly :P *
(July 7, 2024 - 12:22 pm)
wait also I just realized I forgot to mention your ski lodge. The horror!! How could I forget?! But also your ski lodge. Like. o_O
(July 8, 2024 - 9:28 pm)
wait you have a ski lodge? can i ask which one it is so I can read it?
for the music I mentioned on random thoughts/things: honestly i’m too scared you wouldn’t like the music to let you listen to it… but yeah the whole thing is really gross. It’s not necessarily stated as why, but… it’s very clear honestly. The person who writes it is also a mentally ill queer kid/adult, so that doesn’t help. But i just - frankly i think it’s better-written than the vast majority of modern music out there. And sometimes it’s just that the people don’t like bedroom pop i think??? But it’s just - there is a social media-y page about the musician on a website with a lot of different musicians, and it’s basically all insults. Many of which are just transphobia packaged to look less overt (or sometimes just overt). Frankly i’d highly recommend the music but i just… can’t take the possibility you wouldn’t like it XD it's just so strange because people legitimately look down on his music and i just don't know why?? like it's well written? like i guess it must be because it's often focused on some aspect relating to being a queer mentally ill kid, which makes people look down on it, and i've also seen some people call it childish (like guys he literally was a child/teen when he wrote a lot of it? and why can't kids have music that's relatable? like?) and yeah it's just strange
how have things been going with your parents? Have you tried to at least explain how you feel to them? I totally understand if it’d make things worse or it’d be too hard, but i really hope they could at least lighten up a bit. Is there anyone who both you and they trust who might be able to help in the conversation? If you need me to write anything to them i could totally do that, even though i don’t have much credibility. I bet that you could find some resources on introversion perhaps? Or maybe you could ask them why they want you to be so extroverted. They might have a legitimate concern, but you could address it in a different way. maybe they think you’re isolating yourself, and are concerned, for instance. Since you said it’s because they don’t want you to be friendless, maybe explain that you do have your best friend and other friends, and that you’re happy with them, and you’ll still try to make friends if you find anyone you want to make friends with, but having to be social is really draining. Maybe explain if it’s like having to act, or if you feel isolated from people more than feeling close to them and that makes you feel lonelier than you would otherwise. If you have any people that both you and they trust, maybe you could see if they could help?
I really think that, if they do legitimately care about you and want you to be happy, if you explain that being so social is draining you, they should at least be concerned. I’d use specific details here if possible, since they’re more evocative. Maybe explain how being social makes you tired and how that effects things. Maybe they could agree to look into therapy or something, if that’s possible. A therapist could also help get those resources. That’s not always possible though, unfortunately.
also this part sucks but it's probably best to try to stay calm when you're talking to them, or at least not blame them or get really mad at them. it is totally their fault and you totally can blame them and get mad at them, it's just not exactly conductive to the best conversation.
Also it’s okay for you to be unhappy with your parents. Even if they’re doing their best or legitimately think they’re doing the right thing, it can still hurt you and that doesn’t really make it less bad. And even if they’re good 99% of the time it can still hurt and that’s okay. I think you also said that your mental health might not be as good as you thought, and i’m sorry about that. I hope things get better soon, and i hope any of this helps.
(July 6, 2024 - 7:52 pm)
If I'm not mistaken Celine's ski lodge is by Luxury and Contentment on the 2nd page of PP! It's super creative and fun you should def check it out :))
(July 8, 2024 - 11:38 am)