I got that joy joy joy joy! :D :D :D TY for sharing that joy joy joy joy Lyric! (I immediately thought of that song when I read your post) That joy is a great gift from God that I pray will increase in our hearts and spread to others until it is full in heaven.

I'm so so so sorry for your loss. Nothing can repair the hole in your heart that grief made, but I hope that you can feel comforted by your loved ones and this CB community. I wish you anything you need to help you through this and if you ever need to talk or just need some virtual hugs, I'm here for you. 

*gives you a big virtual hug and a cup of your favorite drink and an optional animal plushie to squeeze*

Amethyst, I'm so sorry to hear that :( I don't know what to say, but like the Admins, I'll be praying for you and Poinsettia and the rest of your family.

(as for our thread--please take as much time as you need/want to care for yourself, and don't worry about replying unless you want to <3 )

I'm so sorry Amethyst. Here's a virtual hug and some positivitea. Take time for yourself, and you can take a break from our AE interaction if you need it.

i'm so, so sorry, Amethyst. that's terrible. if you ever want to talk about it, need more virtual hugs, or anything else, we're here <33 *virtual hugs*

i know there's nothing i can say that'll make you feel better, but i thought i'd share this concept/model of "growing around grief" by Lois Tonkin - you can probably find it pretty easily online. basically, the concept is that your grief doesn't ever get smaller/go away; life simply grows bigger around it. it's been kind of comforting to keep in mind whenever i've lost someone in the past <33

i don't know how helpful this is, but like i said, if you need anything, we're here <33 i'll keep you, Poinsettia, your grandfather, and the rest of your family in my thoughts <333

Amethyst, I'm so so sorry for your loss. I've lost both my grandfathers, and it's a really weird and awful feeling. Sending all the available virtual hugs. <3

Thank you so so much to admins and everyone else who responded <333 Your comments meant so much to me, and I'm unutterably lucky to have y'all. There's absolutely no place like the CB - tysm for all the love and support <3

@WiLdSoNg, thank you - the safe comforting place was very appreciated <3

@Lyric, aww yes I love animal plushies! And I'll be replying on our thread probably later today - I do want to continue with it.

@Moon Wolf, ty <3 We can go on with the AE date :)

@Amity, thank you!

@pangolin, aww, I love that concept - it's so beautiful, and so comforting. Thank you for telling me about it, and for the virtual hugs and everything <3

@Lupine, I'm so sorry about your grandfathers; I still have one, so that makes me feel lucky... tysm for the hugs <3

i can't really read right now so this is a really bad time to write this but i'm so sorry :( if you wanted, maybe journaling could help? you could just ramble about how you're feeling, or memories you have, or literally anything you want. my only advice is to not use it to spiral or reinforce things that aren't true or hurt. you can write anything, and it doesn't have to make sense or sound good or have good grammor or anything, and if you have a computer document or notebook that's all you need. just a thought since you're a very good writer. also it's perfectly okay if you're doing bad right now - it's not ideal, and i'd rather you were happy, but you don't have to be. anyway i hope this makes sense but we're here for you (and Poinsettia, because i think you're sisters, so all of this goes for Poinsettia too)