Omk I was literaly just about to post this and then the website stopped working haha. Anyways here's what I was going to post cause I wrote it so ima post it. 

Ah hey all! Been a minuet! I’ve actually been stalking the cb for like a week feeling very nostalgic, been in and out of the er so it was comforting going over old RPs and thinking about past friends :) I had no idea we did the valentines thing every year now? That’s cute haha. Mm I'm Claaws, don't really remember when I was active, but think I stopped posting in like 2018. If you've been reading old Kyndom threads, you know who I am haha. 

Hmm what’s been up with me.. well the whole er thing ig lol. I’ve been diagnosed with pots (autonomic nervous system disorder, probably autoimmune disorder too, affects stuff like heart rate, blood pressure, temp regulation, etc), Ehlers Danlos syndrome (connective tissue disorder, affects Literally Everything. I had to have 7 ribs removed as a freshmen in college because of it. Not sure why they didn’t think to test me for it then??), and Mast Cell Activation Syndrome (autoimmune disorder, it’s when ur body decides it’s suddenly allergic to absolutely everything. Heat is a huge trigger for me! If I get too hot when I’m sleeping I’ll wake up being unable to breath and have to use my inhaler. Very fun haha). These three disorders are more often diagnosed together than not. I’ve had Eds and pots most of my life, it’s just severely escalated over the past yearish (I’m investing in mobility aids and a service dog, that kind of escalation) So that’s been fun to navigate :) Also have a bunch of fun disorders that come along with it, like endometriosis, a type of IBS specific to EDS that I forgot the name of, scoliosis, and a few others. I'm also suspecting now that I have other disorders like Addison's Disease and/or Lupus, but I'm not 100% sure and still need to get tested. And I'm seeing like 12 specialists now which is 5 more since I was going to post this haha. Also, if you suspect you have a chronic illness, please advocate for yourself *especially* if your afab. I’ve made all these diagnosises myself and told my doctors and made them refer me to specialists when they didn't believe me (who confirmed my suspicions, or referred me to someone else because I was ‘too complicated’. True story). Chronic illness isn’t as ‘rare’ as doctors claim it is, it’s just rare to be properly diagnosed. “Sometimes when you hear hoofbeats, it really is a zebra.” It’s not normal to be constantly in pain, even if you’re athletic!! That includes periods, period pain *isn’t normal*! Don’t be afraid to advocate for yourself <3 

Besides that! I’m a senior in college right now! I’m 21! I’m supposed to graduate this semester and fingers crossed that happens, unsure if I can physically manage another year of college. I’m majoring in political science (is anyone surprised haha) minoring in philosophy and certificating in lgbtqia+ studies. I’m also currently the president of a mental health club on campus (I started it back up again after it faded out because of covid), and I have been for the past couple years. Had to take a break last semester, but we’re getting things started up again this semester and it’s looking good! I’m also on the board of a mental health organization, I speak about mental illness and trauma in high/middle schools (did 8 speeches back to back on Friday, it's very fulfilling but I was so exhausted afterwards), and I was interning for a lgbtqia+ organization. I did it last semester, and they wanted me back for the spring but I’ve been really sick so I couldn’t. Oh! I also went to Argentina for the summer and met my dads side of the family which was fun. No, I still cannot speak Spanish but I tried haha. I have like 12? piercings now and 5 tattoos. I still want more hehe :) (but I have learned that I am now allergic to tattoos, figured it out while getting a touch up. Am I gonna get more anyways? Yes. Yes I am). I can’t really think of anything else I’ve been up to at the moment. Still a lot of brain fog :) 

Also! I saw that you all started Kyndom up again! That makes me really happy, Claaws helped me work through a lot :) Fun fact! I accidentally coded her with Borderline Personality Disorder, which I ended up having. (Yeah.. that explains why I was so emotionally all over the place always. Sorry about that!! I had like 10 very aggressive im leaving threads. Honestly I’m not really sure why people idealized me so much?? I’m doing a lot better now though in terms of recognizing when I’m having episodes and not acting on it. My therapist is making me get the shadow work journal that’s all over tiktok so hopefully that helps? I've also been diagnosed with like 11 other psychiatric disorders like Bipolar 2, CPTSD, and Autism (which arguably isn't a 'disorder' we just think differently)) I found a song called Product of My Own Design by Artio that describes Claaws I think perfectly. This would definitely be her anthem. Also, she reminds me a lot of Catra from she-ra (probably because I relate to Catra a lot haha. Honestly her story is a lot like Catras, apparently it’s my favorite trope. Like the similarities between Shadow Weaver and Celeste, Claaws and Lunnee and Catra and Adora?? Ah man maybe that’s why I love she-ra so much). If you haven’t watched it, go watch! (It’s a kids show, don’t worry admins) It’s super gay and explores mental health and trauma so well. I have watched it 8 times all the way through and still cry every episode. My favorite is end of season 4 and season 5. Also season 1 episode 11 still makes me ugly cry every time I watch it heh. Adora has cptsd and probably asd, Catra has bpd and asd, and Entrapta has asd (all cannon, pretty sure). There’s also a non-binary character who canonically uses they/them pronouns! We love Double Trouble :) ND Stevenson, the person who wrote the show is trans (yay trans rep) and also wrote Nimona, which explores transness and trauma. I also relate to Nimona a lot haha. 

Ah also! I’m gay now :3 you know the one who *swore* they were just a really strong ally who took everything against the lgbtqia+ community a little too personally. I’m also non-binary and use they/them pronouns. Funnily enough most of us ended up being lgbt. I actually dated Viola off and on for like a year (ish?) and had a.. codependent situationship with Ashlee G for a few years. I’m actually really glad you all can talk so freely about lgbt stuff now. We fought tooth and nail for that. We couldn’t even *say* the word gay. I would’ve thought the cb would have backtracked even more with the way the world is now, I’m really glad to see that I’m wrong. Keep being yourself loves <3 

Sorry this is a little long, I word vomit haha. Also admins, I'm not entirely sure what the rules on what we can and cant talk about are anymore, I mean I've been reading some of the threads and if anything it seems like there's more freedom but. Idk feel free to take out whatever. Just uh, maybe keep in the stuff about chronic/mental illness. As a professional speaker on this stuff, I know how important it is to talk about it at a young age. :) 

Noon says unmnf. Are you pouting? Aw missed you too~