I have so many things to do and I'm not doing any of them. I guess I kind of feel like I'm just sitting on the curb while the world moves by. I'm also taking up way too many new projects that I know I'm not going to finish, so that's unfortunate. I also haven't done any of my homework, and I still have plenty of time to do it, but it's a source of unbelievable stress. I also feel like I'm getting worse at time management as time goes on, and I'm kind of terrified that once I enter high school, I'll be one of those burnt-out gifted kids that fails freshman year. I also feel kind of disconnected from my friends. Earlier they were talking about how they don't like their parents and like–I don't know, I like my parents. It's weird. I feel like I'm getting meaner and more confrontational as time goes on, and I might have even forgotten how to socialize. I don't know. My parents also won't let me go out for any meetups or anything. They operate under the assumption that every living thing (including squirrels) we meet carries covid, so I haven't seen anyone except the people at the vaccination center in over a year. I'm also severely artblocked. Sometimes I can't tell if a day has been totally awesome are terrible.

Woooo, I think it was actually nice to get that all out. 

MY PARENTS ARE ALL, LIKE, "OH, *INSERT MY REAL NAME HERE* DIDN'T DO THE KITTEN'S CRATE, LIKE SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO!!! THERE'S LITTER ALL OVER THE PLACE!!" AND I'M LIKE, "I DID MY CHORES IS IT MY FAULT THAT THE KITTENS TRASHED IT RIGHT AFTER I CLEANED THE CRATE?!?!?!?" AND THEY SAID THAT IF IT LOOKED LIKE I DIDN'T DO MY CHORES, IT WASN'T DONE, AND I'M LIKE, "WHY ARE THEY SO STRICT?!?!"

AND ON TOP OF THAT MY MOM WON'T LET ME WEAR TANK TOPS STUFF WITH STRAPS, ETC. IN PUBLIC 'CAUSE SHE SAYS IT'S "NOT APPROPIATE FOR A YOUNG LADY" AND I'M NOT FORMAL AND NO MATTER HOW MANY  TIMES I TRY TO EXPLAIN THAT TO HER SHE ACTS LIKE SHE DOSEN'T HEAR ME!!!!!!!!!!

AND MY DAD HAS TO SUPERVISE EVERY LITTLE THING I DO AND THAT'S THE REASON WHY I'M NOT PLAYIN' SIMS 4 WHEN I WANT TO AND I HAVE LIMITED COMPUTER TIME AND I CAN'T HANG OUT WITH MY BFFS AT THE MALL LIKE NORMAL PEEPS DO AND I DON'T HAVE A PHONE WHILE EVERYONE ELSE MY AGE DOES AND THEY GIVE ME TOOOO MANY CHORES AND THEY ACT LIKE I HAVEN'T DONE 'EM!!!!!!!!!!

AND THEY THINK THAT USIN' VIDEO GAMES ROTS MY BRAIN BUT THEY DON'T ROT MY BRAIN THEY JUST MAKE ME SMARTER AND I CAN'T HAVE A LAPTOP IN MY ROOM OR MY NINTENDO IN MY ROOM AND I GO TO BED AT 7:00 INSTEAD OF STAYIN' UP LATE LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE AND THEY DON'T LET ME PLAY UNLIMITED VIDEO GAMES LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE DO!!!!!!!!!!

THEY TREAT ME LIKE A BABY AND DON'T TELL ANYONE WHAT YOU JUST READ 'CAUSE IF MY PARENTS SEE THIS THEY'LL GROUND ME FOR A MONTH!!!!

OH, AND I CAN'T WATCH THE Y TO THE T LIKE NORMAL PEEPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EK, I'm sorry you're unhappy. You parents are doing what they think is right for you. Please don't submit comments in all caps. It comes across like yelling and is harder to read than traditional upper/lowercase type.

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Ok. Not really a rant, but... *clears throat*

OML I LOVE THE OCEAN SO MUCH!!!

Yes. So, rant over before it even began. :) 

Ughhh... I hate angst so much even though it's so good because it hurts but yummmmmmmm~ More angst-train coming through :' )

Um. So my step-mother tested positive for covid this morning, even though she got vaccinated last year. My younger siblings all have to go into quarentine, since they were too young to get a vaccination. Fortunately I got vaccinated and have not been living with my father and stepmother (although my siblings are) so I can still attend school in-person, but yikes. Today has not been a good day, and that was just the icing on the "bleh" cake.

So, I have like 14 things to get done in like a week, plus math, plus science (both of which I don't even understand) and I'm turning 13 this month and I feel like I should be better at managing all this stuff, and also like two of my old friends are kinda ignoring me, but my mom still sets up stuff with them since I don't want to tell her because she'll tell the other moms and then my 'friends' will be more mad at me TwT 

M8. I've been sick for like the past week and half of school and it's really getting to me. It's not covid, I already got tested a couple of times, and it might not even be strep, according to the the rapid test. Plus there was a fire at my house today and between breathing in smoke (despite my best efforts), standing outside in the cold while waiting for the smoke to clear out to check on our belongings, and the stress, my health has only gotten worse. I am so tired of this. 

I'm so sorry, Jaybells. We hope you're better soon!

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So I have pierced ears, right? I've had them for a while with no issues (somewhere between 1-2 years) (except for the fact that I had to redo my left one because the person who was marking them for me to stab the studs through did it slightly too high so there's a scar there) but recently they got infected.

Maybe it was because of the cold, along with a combination of taking them out and putting them in several times everyday (I don't like to sleep with them in, or get them wet either), so the friction and my naturally dry skin got messed up, and all that. But I've been stuck at the house of one of my guardians where I don't have the plainer studdy-ones so I still had to keep changing them even though they were infected and TODAY THE LEFT ONE WAS COMPLETELY SEALED UP. Like, I could get the pointy-bit into the front side of my ear but it couldn't make it all the way through the backside. So, not completely sealed up, but still an issue.

Literally less than 10 minutes ago I forced it through and it made this weird popping sounds and AHHHHHH it sorta hurts. Wow. How fun. I really hope this doesn't happen again. :')

Help whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy