I had a few crushes in elementary school. None of them ever went anywhere, and I look back on them with embarrassment. I haven't crushed on anyone in a long time...

This is my new favorite thread!! 

Y'all don't get to know the Full History(TM) of my crushes but the current crushes I have are:

- Alex (with the hair): does not like me Like That, and is aware of my feelings
- a certain person who I will not name: aware of my feelings, older than me, aroace (I think). Therefore, does not like me Like That.
- David: a maaaaaaybe-crush that I have??? Like, he's cute but a) he has a girlfriend, and b) is too smart-alecky for me

There's a boy that has been coming to my school since last year that I have become pretty good friends with. Last year we really only hung out during school, but this year he and I and our other close friend hand out at each other's houses almost every weekend. I don't know if I'm necessarily crushing on him in a romantic way. It just stinks because I'm finally finding friends I can really be myself around, and I might lose all of them next year when I go to high school :(

Just popping in to say that this thread is adorable.

@Abigail S. 

As one of the dedicated readers of TAoSS, I would just like to say that you may take as much time as you need for this. (As though you need my permission. I wish I could say this in a better manner.)

I would like to say that I understand. You have the right to be angry. 

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I don't get multiple crushes at once, and I've never really understood how. When people (read: My close friend when I lived in another state) would talk about her seven crushes, I just nodded, and thought, 'How on earth can she have so many?' 

When people would say things like, 'Oh, Xxxx's so handsome,' or 'Xxxx's so pretty,' or even 'I like them!' I would think, 'Do you know them? How can you like them?' (Specifically the squish that I mention later. I was always baffled when people would say they liked him. 'I mean...he's a great guy, but him? Really?')

Later in life, when I read about people getting into relationships just because they liked the other person's looks, I would gape at the page and think, 'That doesn't make sense. That just doesn't make sense. These people are crazy. Why would you go into a (romantic) relationship unless you already had a strong emotional bond, or over something as superficial as their appearance? Isn't their personality much more important?'

I have (recently) discovered that not everyone thinks this way, and that this may place me somewhere on the ace spectrum. I'm fine with that. If it means people won't try to pressure me into a romantic relationship, great! That's a bonus! 

This has not spared me from 'crushes', on the other hand. There were simply far fewer of them than others.

I can appreciate beauty. But I mostly appreciate beauty like a painting, or a sculpture. Something to be admired. Something to be appreciated. 

When I say something/someone is 'cute', I don't mean 'handsome' or 'attractive', I mean the kind of cute that my cat is when she is asleep. I mean the kind of cute that means 'adorable' or 'sweet'.

The crush that I remember/am willing to talk about (there was another, but it was a squish), was on this cute (sweet) guy. He's quiet around people he doesn't know that well, but bossy when in his element, an amazing artist and piano player. I distinctly remember thinking that his looks weren't particularly handsome. That wasn't why I liked him. Sure, I guess I liked his looks, but only because they were his looks. We're still friends, though not particularly close ones. 

Crushes...where to begin. I usually get crushes on some of the most inconvienient people possible, and by that I mean former friends of siblings and sometimes even people I don't actually like, but idealize nonetheless. It usually happens something like this:

MY BRAIN: Hey, [insert CBer Name], wouldn't it be funny if.....

ME: No. 

MY BRAIN: Aw, c'mon. 

ME: NO! I don't even know that person very well!

MY BRAIN: Too late! Haha, good luck dealing with this one!

...Yeah, I don't particularly like crushes. Of course, this only comes from my very limited experience, but I don't like idealizing people and unwillingly forming them into a perfect image in my head, or feeling super self-conscious when they walk by, or having all of my confidence drain away every time they talk to me....etc, etc. At the very least, I'd like to know them first. Does this put me on some sort of spectrum? Maybe. I don't know. Anyway, the current person I have a crush on plays violin, and I play cello, and we're both in the same orchestra. 

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AND we get to play Elgar's Serenade!!! Isn't that fun! 

@Anonymouse- Oh, I so get you. My first crush was on a guy that I'de only spoken too literally TWICE! Then it was all out crush mode. The thing was, he kept talking to me. The other thing was, he is my neighbor. The other other thing was...he was only trying to be nice and freindly when he talked to me, seeing that I was bored at this wedding we were at. (How ironic is it that I developed my first crush at a wedding?) I was always VERY awky-ward around him, always agreeing on everything he said, and stuttering and mumbling. It was very interesting when I found out I did not have feelings for him anymore. He was sitting like 5 feet away from me, with a girl who was very obviously his girlfriend, and I did'nt care a dime. I had seen him a few months before, with a different girl, and then...I had felt like my heart had been trampled. And as I said before, when I saw him again, I did not even turn my head. No stupid fluttery feelings. No complete loss of focus. Nothing. WHOOPTY DOO! (I so hate having crushes!)

Hey, Admins, why did my posts get removed? I'm sorry if they were inappropriate in some way, but it seems to me as if the only real difference between my post and others is that the crush described was between two girls. This makes me feel like just because I'm not quite the same as everyone else that my voice isn't allowed to be heard. It's discriminatory.

I'm just curious if there was something else about my posts that was not permitted, or if it was because I'm not straight. If the latter is true I'm going to have difficulty feeling safe on CB. A community in which I'm forced to hide a huge part of my identity is not a community I want to be in.

I'm sorrry, but I don't remember. It's possible that something was stated too specifically. We're actually considering closing the whole thread and would like to encourage everyone to move on to other topics.

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