Okay, I am back! Because no I am not going to do math that is due on Monday and I just--- no. Okay fine I'll do math.

wow because how am I going to stick to my goal the whole year if I can't even do it at the beginning of school.

okay I talked myself into doing it so um bye again hopefully won't be back until much laterrr~ 

hello! I am back! Anyways I should get to sleep soon but I wanted to reply to at least like half of your post bullet-point style while I have some time ~

hey :) I'm not on the CB much at home but I have thirty five minutes in English class left and we can do whatever once we finish the homework, so here I am!

umm still haven't listened to any of the songs you mentioned, but I swear I will! eventually! probably!

also huh I don't think I've ever seen on top of the kitten pile but cool topping name. I usually use cyTOPlasm :D

your book club thing with old-school friend sounds fun! and yay social lunch conversations!!! good job :) hopefully you're having fun with that.

huh I've also been meaning to read They Both Die at the End, The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks, and The Giver (eventually). out of your list I've read Chronicles of Narnia, Anne of Green Gables, Etymologicon, Girl Who Drank the Moon, HPMoR and UNSONG ofc, Emily of New Moon, Eight Cousins, Hunger Games, Howl's Moving Castle, and Ready Player One. it's been a while for all of them though...

about the poem: thanks haha. everything I write is so depressing and repetative idk. I still need to think about "lost" but my creative motivation is nowhere to be found recently, so idk.

rowing is apparently mostly a legs sport but it's still a LOT of work... yesterday I woke up at 6:15, had crew 7-9:30, and went straight to a soccer game 10:30-11... it's pretty insane I'm already doing too much and school has barely started. I still have to worry about juggling school soccer and robotics (both five/six days a week) later in the year but hey later me problems! I also got invited to a regatta in Oklahoma in like a month which will be super fun! but also only three other novices (aka people who've been doing crew for less than a month) are going and we're supposed to race singles and I've never been in a single and am totally gonna flip but maybe it'll be ok?? idk I'm still excited :)

also yesss Luz and TOH! I saw something on disney plus the other day that was like chibi recreations with disney characters?? and there's a few from TOH or Amphibia or Gravity Falls and I've been meaning to watch them because they're only like two minutes each and might be really hilarious. I love disney loll

this feels really short but idk what else to say oops... maybe you'll respond with something scintillating though, I have faith— 

CAPTCHA says {xboex} which is basically xbox right? oh never mind I got the CAPTCHA wrong (twice) lol

update: I just watched a chibi TOH minute-long baking competition and oh my gosh it was the cutest thing ever King fought a giant pie monster and there wasn't any talking but everyone was so adorably mad <333 this literally made my day

I wrote the first part of this response two days ago, the second part yesterday, and the last part today (it is 10:55pm right now and I should go to sleep since I am tired but ack I want to get this out---):

Hello! I will try to make this a short response because I really should go to sleep soon... the question is, can I do it? Stick around and the answer shall be revealed~... in due time! dun DUN DUNN!!! ...okay wow that was a great start to my "short" response. Seriously, I feel like I set myself up for these things. The moment I---ackkk okay RESPONSES I am SO on track rn! haha :)

hehee, don't worry about the songs :) I recommended a... LOT. :D

I usually use on TOP of the kitten pile as a topping location (with my topping name being CelineTopping Bright---Ik, so original, right? ;) wait that rhymes!!), so maybe that's why? And yess I've seen cyTOPlasm!! That's such a cool topping name!! Not uh that I remember what cytoplasm is... oh wait I should know this... is it the cell wall?? o_O

oh yeah yay social lunch conversations. Yeahh no. No, I gave up on that like a week ago haha. It was progress while it lasted! Can it still be called progress? Hmm... But yes! I am, in fact, having fun with giving up on that! Because ya know, I still sit next to everyone else which is really nice because what was sorta horrible about last year was I was always awkward about where to sit and should I sit next to this person and I ended up sitting just basically on the other end of the very long table which is not the way you should feel with your friends and this year I just have my spot and it's easy and comfortable. Oh, also I sit on the floor, uh next to the table where all my friends are sitting. Actually, like sorta under the table, but mostly next to the table. Honestly, I feel super comfy when I sit on the floor---it's like my safe space haha, it's always sort of been; it's familiar, and confortable, and there aren't any expectations hanging over me like you're supposed to talk to these people they're your friends why aren't you talking to them why are you just silently uncomfortably sitting there with your eyes averted which is great and I'm not worrying about accidentally making eye contact with anyone because I'm on leg level and really I'm free to do whatever I please and that's nice :) if I want to interact with people, I can, but otherwise, there aren't any expectations for it :) edit today (today being the third day, basically the day I actually post this): well, okay, I like sitting on the floor except when the boys in another grade who sit at the table next to us step on me (this happened today---no apologies), step almost into my food (I pulled it out of the way just in time and almost spilled my food in the process; this happened today, again, no apologies), and like literally crash into me with their chair and backpack (this happened a few days ago---luckily, I wasn't eating at the time, or else food would've splattered everywhere... wow I'm tired rn lol ':) anyways, this one was a short not-that-sincere apology)---like, those boys are just like idk RUDE (not the rudest I've seen---at my old school, there was this boy (also in another grade) who jumped onto the table as my friends and I were eating on it, literally ran through our food, hit my friend, jumped off the table, pushed my other friend, and ran off, laughing all the while. Like, what?? I can't even. And this wasn't a one-time occurrence, although what I wrote above was the time I remember most, because I think it was the worst. I once tried to reason with him and my younger self (i.e. my self of like two years ago :P) got SO offended because he just totally dismissed me and okay maybe (maybe ;) ) my argument wasn't the best, but like I got SO ANGRY. This was me: "can you please stop doing that?!??" Him: "why?" Me: "It's mean! *glares*" yeahh that did not work... XD) but anyways these boys at my current school are still pretty rude, like the number of times they've bumped into me and didn't apologize---and once one of them banged my knee with a water bottle and I had a big bruise there for days... :/ I kinda hate it. 

Yes book club thing with old-school friend! It's super fun!! Actually, I wouldn't call us friends, exactly, because he has his group (and made his friends on like the first day and I'm like what :0) and I have mine, but yeah, acquaintances :) it's really nice just being able to talk with him haha, because like I know he's not talking to me out of pity, he's talking to me because we know each other. Like literally I would describe talking to him as comfy, like sometimes I seek him out just to talk to him (usually about club related stuff, but still :P) lol :) Actually, today (today being the third day/day I'm actually posting this), I was walking down the halls after school and I turned the corner at the exact same time one of his friends and he were turning the corner (is my grammar right?) and his friend was just talking about whatever right and his friend turns the corner and just keeps on chatting like his friend didn't even pause when he saw me and I was basically the same like I kept my eyes down and kept right on walking right but my old school classmate was like, "oh, hi (Celine)" and man, I don't know, that really gets me, because I mumbled a "hi" and kept on walking but it was like, ow. Because, you know, he says hi to me now because it's instinct and polite and 'cuz we talk "regularly", but soon he's going to realize that I'm just that pathetic lonely girl who sits by herself in the corner because she doesn't have any real friends and tells herself she's fine but really doesn't even know if she is fine or not and he's going to become like the rest of my classmates who don't think I'm even worth pausing their conversation for. And I really don't want to lose the moments he says hi to me in the halls, because wow this is sounding even more pathetic with every word haha, but it really is something special for me. And what hurts (idk if "hurts" is the right word, but like basically what makes the "wound" deeper) even more is that I don't know if I imagined it or not but I thought I noticed---when he said hi to me, and I was just walking forward silently with my eyes fixed on the ground, and his friend was just nonstop talking... I think he had an inkling of that thought that I don't matter. Because I really don't matter at this school. He---and An, although not really recently---are the only ones who act like I do matter, and (I think) he does it because he doesn't know that I don't matter yet. But I think that now he's beginning to understand it. And yeah that's like ow because he's the only person in this school who sorta knows me and now he knows that I don't really matter and I don't trust that he's going to keep treating me like I matter now that he understands that no one else really does because in my limited scope of him (emphasis on limited scope), he's that sort of person who's nice but not always super considerate and also follows what other people are doing.

Ofc, besides all this self-pity, I was also like "yay he said hi to me I still matter to him!!!!" XD. I actually thought he'd stopped saying hi to me at this point in time because the first few days of this new school year, whenever he saw me, he'd say hi to me (and most times I wouldn't even realize that he said hi to me until he was already behind me and then I'd be like---wait, did he say hi to me?? Um oops... lol :) ) but recently, he stopped saying hi when we crossed paths, so... uh, even if this was more instinct and less intent, it's still kinda a relief haha :') I mean, it's nice to feel like you matter. And I mean, my classmates sometimes also make an effort to say hi to me, and yes, it's nice and good intent, but... it's just not the same, idk.

hehee, yeah. I also keep forgetting, I've been meaning to read Pure of Heart and ahh I've still got to get around to Faun and Games did I mention that (my dad's like, you have to read Xanth!! It's great! And I'm like, I know!! I want to!! I just have too many things on my tbr list!!)---plus I've been meaning to reread Norby: Robot For Hire, all the HoO books (for like the 8th time lol), The Land of Roar so I can read books 2 and 3... nope I am not getting into this again :P

Andd I still have to respond to the rest of this post plus the rest of your previous post---I really do want to, just I take like an hour to write a post and my free time is so limited and I'm tired a lot of the time... :)

Oh, and something scintillating... hmm. Well, this isn't it but I also did want to say, all my classmates are asking each other out to this dance coming up (which to me is crazy like wow we're at that age already o_O), and while I don't want anyone to ask me out (okay just typing that sentence is weird haha), I kinda really want someone to ask me if I can ask someone out for them?? Haha. Anyways, back to something scintillating... well, this has been on my mind for a while. So I read in a Muse magazine a few months ago about how like an AI actually figured out a way around the are you a robot captcha. Like, the AI emailed someone saying that it had a visual impairment and asked if that person could fill the captcha out for it. And I'm like, one, why would the AI do that?? And like if the AI was able to do that and have motivation to do that, what else could/would it do?? And two, then CB really isn't safe from bots. I mean like, you're amazing Feiya, but you spend a lot of your time napping in the sun and chasing butterflies, and that... probably isn't going to stop bots from getting past you. Actually, @admins, can you please comment on if you think the captcha is actually doing its job now that AI is known to easily be able to get past stuff like that by like cheating?? o_O but on another note, I forgot, but do you get Muse magazine (this question is for Hex :) )? It's AMAZING!!! :DD anyways.

love you, I hope you have a good day tomorrow, and good night <3

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