fragile flight/because nobody else will

I found myself surrounded by the crude exclamations of high schoolers who couldn’t be bothered to read more than one plaque in ten

dunked in a dizzying spiral of people more concerned with overpriced plastic souveniers than culture or knowledge

amidst pristinely manufactured glass cages and the the animals inside

I watched the taxidermied creatures so unaware and frozen in death

and I hurt all the more because they couldn’t and I sat in the middle of a busy exhibit and I read all the signs and noticed all the overlooked thoughts and I hated the preoccupied unfeeling teenagers and overhyped consumerism

and I pondered cruelty

if only because nobody else will

I pitied the hollow pufferfish and the motionless coyote and the terrified hedgehog

but most of all the butterflies with their pinned wings outstretched so close to freedom

as if I could watch them burst from the display case to leave dizzying contrails of magic

and I knew I would save them if I could

if only because nobody else will

if I could I’d carefully unpin their fragile wings and smooth out the creases

and I’d remove them from the leering public and I’d breathe reverie back into them until they could fly and I’d spin a gossamer lifeline with the nearby spider’s silk and I’d build a wall of whale bones taken from that one exhibit on the first floor and I’d shelter them and protect them and I’d hope for them beyond medicore poetry with fake promises

and together we’d break free from cold metal chains and borrow strength from each other

we would soar into a sunrise tomorrow and suck the nectar of love

and we would remember

if only because nobody else will

so I stared at those butterflies in that display case and I cried because it's never been meant to be and I captured their tiny breakable souls on the camera app in my hard corporate phone and now hours later I try to memorialize them with harsh unfeeling words about our broken society

and I’m so sorry it’s not enough

but at least I tried and at I cared

if only because maybe someone else will read this and maybe

now somebody else will.

Fragile like all those thousands of letters

That clogged my simple,badly painted mailbox

Filled with scrawling descriptions

Of hollow apologies and weak excuses

Just like our demolished love

Annihilated to shreds with my sharpest scissors-

The ones I wish I could cut my broken heart out with

Fragile like that fancy French mirror you once bought me-

Shattered in a single strike with that seashell you gave me

At that beach,somewhere,sometime.

The shards still lay nestled my desk because 

I can’t bear to let even a fragment 

Of what was once happiness leave me

Unlike how you had no regrets letting me go

Even before my world, my heart, and my life broke

Fragile like summer popsicles

The ones we used to eat together, hand in hand

Savoring every last drop of tangy sweetness

While we laughed the world around us away

But good things never last forever

Because those popsicles would slowly melt away 

In the fierce summer heat beating mercilessly down

Leaving only miniscule splatters in its wake

Just like how I melted slowly in your hands.

Leaving a shell of a broken girl in her broken world in your wake

Fragile like everlasting time

Seconds led to minutes, and minutes led to days

But it doesn't matter, because I could live for a thousand years

And always repeat that minute I’ve been forever stuck on,

That minute when time stopped

That minute when forever together turned into forevers-

Forevers of nightmares, of loneliness

A forever of calling your name even when you won’t come

Will never come.

Memories fade slowly…..

Even though my feelings for you won’t-and can’t.

Strong like me

You broke me, yes.

But anyone can break a girl who was already broken.

A girl whose world had already crumbled and fell at her feet.

A girl who's heart knew what was coming, even if her head tried to deny it.

A girl who is suffocating even though her lungs combust with air

A girl who is dying even though her heart beats valiantly strong

A girl whose eyes are slowly closing even though she’s wide awake

A girl who you poisoned from the inside.

A girl who would still give anything to kiss the same lips that now relentlessly torture her with words that slash out like serrated knives and sting with all the electricity of acid.

Memories fade,hearts break, but sadness is eternal.

Hands might heal,head might not

Heart won’t

Maybe I’m just naive

Or I spend too much time on wishing for the days when my biggest worries

Was if I could somehow get your attention

I might be broken or strong

But I know-

What makes you the most happy and lifts you up,what makes you feel the most love, kills you the hardest and forces you to plummet to the abyss of vengeance and sadness.

Just like you.

fragile

the moment when you

curl up with a new book and

don't know if the world will be yours

something that becomes another escape

another memory or

if something equally cruel will shatter

this one moment

fragile

nestling a seed into a fold of dirt

a promise of life

scattering raindrops over

it and whispering

i love you and hoping it to

life, that the promise is

kept

fragile

a fluttering heartbeat of

time between two equally powerful

forces when a being is wavering between them

and it isn't going to

win back but

maybe somehow it conquers the

odds and wins through

fragile

realizing something that should have been

obvious all along but never was

until this

second that can never

come again but it doesn't have to

because it's

already changed your life

fragile

the shattering of

crystal dreams with a sound of broken

shards hitting the unsteady floor

a sound of broken

shards piercing your heart with

a sound of impossibility and

the knowledge that

the fractals are irreplaceable and you'll

never piece them together again

fragile

but overpowering and maybe

unstoppable

Fraigile,

torn buttterfly wings.

beautiful.

broken.

Fragile,

a piece of shredded paper.

blank and useless.

dull and plian.

Fragile,

a shard broken glass,

splinterd.

broken.

Unfixable.

Fragile

on  the outside.

on the inside,

a glimmer of a person,

trying to be seen.

The person that is

tired of being overlooked.

tired of being judged,

tired of being mistreated,

tired of this evil world and its wicked ways.

But mostly,

tired of being tired,

tired of being ashamed

for who they are.

tired of hiding

themselves.

Who says fragile is weak?

Fragile,

the butterfly 

with mended wings, 

stuggiling to fly,

falling, 

but getting up.

Seeing freedom.

Fragile,

the delicate parts

of the torn paper,

ugly.

Glued together

to make a collage.

Beautiful.

Fragile,

the shard of splinterd glass.

piced together.

whole again.

not perfect,

but 

enough.

Fragile,

Ugly, delicate, weak.

Failing, not enough.

unfixable. inperfect.

Fragile,

Broken but beautiful. 

Trying, helping.

Falling, but getting back

up. 

learning, growing.

Fragile is broken and beautiful.

Fragile is enough.  

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