Oh, Viola? I completely understand. In fact, that’s exactly how I’m feeling lately also, and you put it into words perfectly. 

I too feel as though I am now old. I look at new threads and I feel kind of lost in the story. Most of all of our old friends and characters are gone, and I don’t know what to do with my character anymore. But I’ve been brainstorming a few ideas and getting the old juices flowing, so I’ll try to post those.*

However, I have started to feel a little burnt out, trying to catch up with the slow moving but also somehow extremely fast changes that Kyngdom is going through. 

I wish you luck, friend, and encourage your continuing journey-no matter how fast or slow it may be-with Kyngdom. 

*(Possibly involving Nygrune and Ocean? And I’ll try to update on the Normality thread and my history thread) 

I'm sorry to say that I cannot empahize, but I will attempt to sympathize.

For me, Kyngdom is my Hidey-Hole, my last resort, my Pokemon Center, etc. It lets me pour my emotions out onto and into things that I have created, and the others that can see what I've done can do nothing about it/ignore it. Being an introvert, this is a great comfort because I don't vent very easily in real life.

In your view I imagine Kyngdom as a barren landscape with sure treasure hidden deep underneath, but you only have a vague and faded map to help you. You're on your own, and there are many dangers. I feel like that almost every day of my life. I feel restricted, a worker who works overtime often with lower-than-minimum pay. I get it. I'd like to be you vent subject. You can say whatever you want to me (just please don't swear), and I will in return offer words of affirmation to comfort you. Sound good? :) I like to listen. To literally anything. You're good. I will most likely be found on the Sage Rp... Thread. See you there, friend!

I understand what you're saying, Viola?. Things are changing, swirling, shifting. I feel them too. They make me uneasy sometimes, as if Kyngdom is teetering, but then I remind myself that I have to be here or else it might actually fall.

Is that the heart of the problem--the changes themselves? The shift from what once was into something new, as if it's moving on to someting different, something with which you can't feel inspired--something that doesn't draw you in like it once did?

Or is it the speed at which these changes are happening? Gone for a few days, everything happens, and you can't catch up in time for the next explosion? I know how that goes. It's why I used to keep disappearing all the time.

Or perhaps it's mixture of both of those things.

I know what you mean about the plot. It's hard to put into words, but I get what you're saying about its current state. Hard to mold, as if all the characters and threads are disconnected from the main story. Maybe that's the heart of the problem. We're all sort of...uncoordinated right now.

I've been thinking a lot lately, and I realized there is something that might be beneficial to us: another live chat. Something where we could all get together and discuss everything that needs to be discussed, all at one time--a meeting! If the Admins are willing, it could be here; or, we could do it on Nano YWP; or, we could use YouTube Live, which I'm toying around with right now.

I think a live chat would be excellent! This also made me curious on how long I've been on Kyngdom, so I went back to the very first post I ever made on Kyngdom, cringed, and discovered I have been on Kyngdom for exactly 1 year, 1 month, and 3 days. Whew!

Hey Viola, I totally get it! two years ago I started kingdom, and just three months later I started middle school. I’m a slow worker, and even if I love the community here, I had to stop. My grades were dropping, I felt like I was missing things in the real world, and that things were moving too slowly in this fantasy we all create together. I had to choose to stop writing for fun, and start writing for school. It was hard at first, since I left at a crucial part in the story, and I felt like I was letting my friends down. But don't worry. I have learned that people don't forget, and you can feel proud when you regain your balance on the ground, to keep the privilege of having your head in the clouds. Learn new tricks from school, enjoy friends in real life, and when you start to miss it, return will an open mind and the ability to read for long periods of time. The hardest part is catching back up.

And if you feel that your characters died like an era, there is always room for new yet familiar faces.