I have a crush on SEVEN PEOPLE. There's a slight problemo with my 2 latest crushes: 1. They're both gay and 2. One's nonbinary and uses he/they pronouns. I can't tell my parents 'bout that crush cause if I do, I'm dead. Oh, also these two are also online personalities (most of my crushes are) so they don't know I exist (most of my crushes are the same except for my boyfriend AA).

*shrieks in cuteness*

well um there's a cute boy in one of my classes... idk, he just has like a really nice smile and kind of a happy spark and he's not bad-looking, he has brown eyes and kind of light brown hair and he's just um not bad-looking at all. Also today he was going on about autumn and the leaves changing colors and stuff and it was kind of nice. I don't think we're actually kindred spirits, but still. Oh and also he's into volleyball big-time?? which like why can't he be into soccer instead :/

Yesterday, I finally received a text from my old crush. I told him I liked him over the summer and then ghosted him because I was waaaay too embarrassed (he didn't like me back) *cues screaming in frustration because I was being idiotic* 

He texted me back, and then a random stream of gibberish came through. He unsent it and claimed another girl, let's call her "A" sent it. I said I didn't know who A was, since we go to different schools and he said she was his new best friend or something like that. But he just transfered to his current school two months ago. You cannot possibly become best friends with someone after two months! (At least to me that is). He sent a picture of A to me so I could see who she was. She looked like the nicest person ever! Which made it even more bitter for me :(

When I was friends with him (we were good friends), we had a playful relationship, playing pranks, punching each other lightly, laughing a lot, having mild grudges, teasing each other, etc. But he and A looked like they had a "respectful" relationship. Do I ask him a bout A though? Because the only time he really reads messages and texts is when he's on the bus. When A happens to be right next to him. SO it would be weird if she read that message. I asked him if he wanted to go trick or treating, but he hasn't responded. I wonder if he's going with A...

I FEEL SO GUILTY FOR BEING JEALOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!