My. Gosh. (Note: The following vent is long and does not make much sense at all. You should be warned that it will waste your time reading it. And Admins, I apologize in advance that you have to read this)  

Okay, so I just got my schedule for school today and...*Mind Explodes* GAH it is so complicated! I'm like, is this what normal middle school schedules look like and I just missed out last year or what? It is different EVERYDAY! Like, whos idea was it? And who decided to sit the two students with the same name RIGHT NEXT TO EACH OTHER (It's not me, but it is my friend L)? I mean, that doesn't make sense! And I have a bottom locker. And I am tall. And in 5th grade when I had a top locker I banged the guy beneath me's head three different times and now I don't even KNOW the kid above me. As a matter of fact, all of the lockers relatively near me are for kids in other grades. Then, my school decided to TOTALLY change things up and start doing electives along with two math levels for 7th (my grade) and therefor spliting up the class for math AND science. Okay, the last part isn't to bad. My class is LOUD. But one of my best friends is in pregular math, so that isn't to great. My two closest friends sit on the other end of the room, and we have a new music, art, AND P.E teacher. Seats are now 3 feet apart. A (as in the friend) is probably a whole head taller than me now. Okay, actually, two are that tall. I forgot about 6-foot (N), who is probably actually is 6 feet tall. Two more new kids too! One who's address is in Minnisota (the school is in NC, so...). And yes, I know his address because I am supremely nosy and know all of my classmates addresses, including the new kids. I saw four of my classmates, and succeeded in talking to two. Yay me! Now you just have to talk to the total of 8 new people who joined in 2020 and 2021. And why the heck are they making me take some leadership class? Who are we leading? The 6th graders? Why would they need leading? And drama class. Oh, I bet my class is good at that one. *sigh*

What a meet the teachers day.  

School starts tomorrow. :P

Oh, and I probably won't be as active when school starts. We aren't allowed to use devices in the school exept for the regestered computers (in which there is no CB). So I will try to come on in the late afternoons, but I really don't know what to expect. So, yeah. Wish me luck! 

First day of tennis is over, and my feet are incredibly sore. I'm fairly sure I'll make the team, but I don't know, because there's still a whole week of tryouts ahead XD

I just told a knock knock joke to my friend right as she sent a very sad message about a breakup this is the worst timing of my life.

I love reading books that make my heart ache.

MEANWHILE IN WRITING'S HOUSE...!

Their father is watching Donald Duck cartoons.

By himself. 

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This is my life :) 

I should get better at not reading spoilers

Why? Like seriously. Why though.

Yà si'imáņğ ehítë ļeceñ'ap dųna âtei-ĺõļquē.

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P.S. There was a bby earlier. 

Where? Is my cookie???

Also, have I been neglecting Bella?

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*munches* Eww... It's peanut butter...

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Also also, actually actually... How to write a story you care about?

P.S. Bella says inrbo! ...That's actually sorta funny. 

So... I haven't been posting much lately (for various reasons) but I needed someplace to put this all into words so here goes...

My mental health has not been great in a while, most days I'm really exhausted and have no motivation, and I've been feeling kinda depressed. I haven't really been happy in a while even though I'm trying. I'm an introvert but I also need to be around people and that's been really hard this summer and I can't wait to go back to school but that's not for two weeks. My brother got into a fight with one of his friends, also my good friend, so I feel like I can't talk to them anymore, another friend is gone for two weeks, and one of my friends and I were gonna hang out today but she texted me out of the blue saying she was sick but it was really weird and abrupt so... basically my support system is nonexistent.

I was at camp last week and it was making me really anxious and homesick, like I got physically sick and almost had a panic attack, and I managed to convince my parents to pick me up but I think that whole experience just made everything worse...

So yeah that's my rant, sorry for troubling you all with it. 

You should check out Shunske Sato, he is a really good baroque performer.