I'm Leaving.

Chatterbox: Down to Earth

I'm Leaving.

I'm Leaving. Forever

Listen, I hope this isn't a huge shock. I was sort of hinting it in some comments earlier to help. Umm... Ugh, I've never written a farewell post before. It's hard.

As in, I'm practically crying.

Let me say, it isn't my choice. My parents decided to get rid of all internet. In other words, not only will I have no access to video games (I only do Multiplayer), it means no CB. Sort of hard to say, I mean, I joined back in July, 2010. Yes, I haven't always been on the CB. I came back on little over a month ago (June 20 something).

And... Most, if not all of you, are new faces for me. I don't know any of you very well. But you've all become like siblings and best friends to me. You're there to give support when I need it. Whether you know it or not, you've helped me dramatically in the past month or so.

Elmodaisy, I've said this countless times before. You are someone I look up to. You might be younger than me, but who cares? Sometimes it are the younger people who have the ability to make the biggest change in the world. You are honest, brave, trustworthy, friendly, supportive. Everything I could have ever asked for in a friend.

Mei, I know we've gotten into some pretty bad arguments. That's my fault, not yours. I need to learn when to keep my mouth shut. To keep my fingers away from the keyboard, you know? Let me just say this, you are an amazing person. You are intelligent, creative, and know how to make a difference. You would be someone who I could see as an amazing person in a leadership role like government. You have a strong voice and no fear, and that's something I will always regret not having.

Gared, I haven't got to know you very well, but you're one of my favorite people on the CB. You have created some of the best role plays and independent stories I have ever seen. Your writing style is fantastic, and there hasn't been a day where I read your posts and haven't laughed. You are one of the people on here I have to say thank you to for having always been able to brighten my day.

Clouded Leopard, I don't really know what to say here. As in, I have so much to say I can't put it all in an understandable paragraph. I look up to you for your friendliness, uniqueness, creativity, and maturity. With a mind like yours, you can go anywhere in the world. You are a fantastic writer and are outstanding at creating strong characters, proven by the personality of the Leopard Brothers. Thank you for being that outgoing, friendly person who was one of the first to greet and welcome me.

St.Owl, I can't forget you. You have such an amazing character that you're simply unforgettable. I haven't seen such amazing writing in forever. You are a natural at creating tension in stories, and creating something I could reread a thousand times over like Harry Potter. Keep up the amazing work, you'll go far in life, no doubt.

Everyone else, I would love to write personal things for the rest of you. But I can't. I can't go on to write anything longer than I've written thus far. You all mean a lot to me. Like I said, each and every one of you are like brothers, sisters, and best friends in my mind. So I've adopted you into my CB family from day one. You all hold unique personalities that I will always remember. You are all creative in one way or another. Whether that is in making people laugh, creating AEs, writing, photography, art, picturings, everything. You. Are. All. Amazing.

Now I must be nearing the end of this post. I never deserved to have such great supporters and friends. Never. And yet you all came and welcomed me like lost cousins! How could that be so? Because you all have hearts of gold. Now I must make my farwell to each and every one of you.

Just remember - goodbye isn't forever. 

submitted by Ashlee G., age 15, The Future
(July 27, 2016 - 12:06 pm)

NO! STINKIT! We'll miss you a lot Ashlee. I didn't get to know you as well as I wish I had, but in the time I have had, I seen you're a kindhearted, imaginative person. I wish you nothing but the best! I'll be praying for you! 

submitted by WillT.
(July 28, 2016 - 5:34 pm)

Thank you, Will!

submitted by Ashlee G., age 15, The Future
(July 29, 2016 - 12:11 pm)

Why? Whyyy? I have tears in my eyes and I can barely type. I come on to the CB for the first time in three weeks, and this is what I see? Nooo! *sobs*

Ashlee. Ashlee, Ashlee, Ashlee. I will miss you so, so much. In the short month you've been back, you've become such an important part of the CB, I can't imagine it without you. You are a fountain of ideas, forever thinking up something new. You're always trying to reconcile everyone and make us get along. There isn't a thread on the CB that you haven't posted on. You are incredibly eloquent, and always have a kind word for everyone. Even though we haven't gotten to know each other very well, you've become one of my idols. You remind me of another CBer from a while back, one who I was great friends with, The Phoenix, née Abigail A. I was heartbroken when she left, I'm heartbroken now that you're leaving. 

Goodbye. I'll miss you. So, so much.

My heart is breaking.  

submitted by Booksy Owly
(July 29, 2016 - 3:03 am)

Thank you, Booksy, so much! That means a lot. And... I might have good news. I might have worked to something like a compromise. Not my idea, but... anyways, I could have good news in a few days. I have to wait for confirmation.

If it turns out not to be good news, then I'll miss you very much as well. You are a great person, very creative and unique. Thank you, again! 

submitted by Ashlee G., age 15, The Future
(July 29, 2016 - 12:14 pm)

Oh, Ashlee, I've been where you are, gone through that, too, in a way. I'm ever so sorry about this. I know we never actually talked, but I loved having you here. You were that mature, older sister presence I'll miss. Being an older CBer as well, it was nice to see someone closer to my age. I hope you go on to do great things in life, and never forget us, the same way we'll never forget you. *hugs*

~Cayke

submitted by CaykeTheCook
(July 29, 2016 - 11:24 pm)

Oh, thank you, Cayke! Good to know I'm not the only one who's been in this place. And yes, I wish we had talked more. I've only really talked to you on a few threads. Again, thank you, and I won't ever forget you guys either. You've been a great person, and I have no doubt you'll do amazing things in life as well. Farewell for now... 

submitted by Ashlee G., age 15, The Future
(July 30, 2016 - 1:02 pm)

Nooooooooooo!!!!!! *goes and cries in a corner*

 

We'll all miss you, Ashlee! Even though I never really got to know you, I've always liked you. I'll make sure that Brian doesn't eat all your crystalized pinneapples while you're gone. You will not be gone forever!!! I refuse to believe this!!! 

This might help: tell your parents that they should keep the wifi, but change the password every day or week. Then, they only tell you and your siblings the password on a certain day or time, so you guys aren't on your devices all the time, and only sometimes! I really hope this works! You can also tell them how important the CB is to you, and how it would be really inconvenient for them without wifi. You've probably done this already, but don't give up hope!!!!!  

submitted by Kate-the-Great
(July 30, 2016 - 5:16 pm)

Thanks, Kate! What it sounds like is they are just going to turn off WiFi during the weekdays and give us access for a short time on the weekends. In other words, I'd only be on on the weekends. But this isn't for sure, and there is a good chance they will just keep to their original plan on removing the internet altogether. Forever. But we'll have to see, I suppose. Thank you again, though!

submitted by Ashlee G., age 15, The Future
(July 30, 2016 - 9:54 pm)