In my head~I

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In my head~I

In my head~

I fell out of my heaven long ago.

It hurt, but nobody asks me about it.

But it's okay.

I never amounted to much anyway.

I probably never will. 

In real life~

I get into fallouts fairly often.

I never mean to,

They kind of just happen.

But you're okay.

It's my fault, anyway.

And that's probably all it'll ever be. 

In my heart~

People keep falling through my fingers.

Maybe because I don't trust them enough.

Trust them or is it that I don't trust myself?

But they're okay.

I'm the bad guy here anyway.

And that's probably all I'll ever be. 

ME~

I'm sorry.

I can't speak.

I'm afraid I'll hurt you.

That you'll misunderstand.

Everyone does.

But it's okay.

My faults amount only to me being the bad guy.

And that's probably all I'll ever be.

I'm sorry for when I'll hurt you.

I'm sorry for when you will misunderstand.

I'm sorry because I won't amount to much.

I'm sorry because it's my fault.

I'm sorry because I'm the bad guy.

I'm sorry.

And that's probably all I'll ever be. 

submitted by Rogue Wildling
(May 11, 2019 - 3:34 pm)

I'm sorry for you Rogue. None of the things you just said are true, though. You're an awesome, clever, funny person, and you are NOT the bad guy. I'm sorry about what's going on in your life, but remember the CB is always here for you, okay? 

And I'm always here for my friends. 

submitted by Agent Winter, age Classified
(May 11, 2019 - 7:55 pm)
submitted by TOP
(May 11, 2019 - 9:05 pm)

You never mean to hurt someone

Misunderstandings happen, they're not your fault

You will amount to so much. So much, RW.

It's not your fault, it never is.

You are more than you know.

You're not the bad guy, not in my eyes.

In my eyes, you are the strong and independant one.

The one unafraid of judgement.

The one full of wit and humor.

A person I am proud

Proud

to call my friend. 

submitted by Darkking, Here for you
(May 11, 2019 - 11:09 pm)

Wow... Thank you, Darkking. I'm proud to call you my friend as well. *Hugs*

submitted by Rogue Wildling
(May 12, 2019 - 9:24 am)

*gentle hug*

submitted by Darkking, You are never alone
(May 12, 2019 - 2:10 pm)

Rogue.

You were one of the first people to welcome me to the CB, one of the first to make me feel like I was really becoming a part of something.

I have never seen you as anything but a friend and a person who I've genuinely wanted to get to know better.

I know reading comments like mine doesn't exactly always help, because I've been where you are. I understand how easy it is to get lost in this way of thinking.

You are an incredible poet and writer. Do you hear me? Incrediible. You're one of my role models on the CB, and I really hope we'll be able to do more work together some day.

Nobody is perfect, and I truly hope nobody is pressuring you to be. I've felt like people want me to contort myself into the way they see me. Into the person they want me to be. Maybe it has something to do with how I project myself. I can guarantee that no one here thinks of you as the bad guy. You do have faults, and you might have bad days, but everyone does. Everyone. Does.

You aren't alone, Rogue, and I don't want you to think you are.

 

submitted by The Girl Next Door, age 14, Washington
(May 12, 2019 - 9:33 am)

... Thank you. *Pulls The Girl Next Door into hug*

submitted by Rogue Wildling
(May 12, 2019 - 9:10 pm)

THIS IS AN OUTRAGE.

ROGUE THINKS THEY "DON'T AMOUNT TO MUCH" IS "THE BAD GUY"

WHAAAAAAT

THAT IS NEVER POSSIBLE

YOU IS AWESOME

AND DON'T YOU FORGET IT

or I shall take actiion with a large pair of scissors! Seriously, Rogue, get some self-esteem, because you deserve it.

:)

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<3 Spiffy! 

submitted by Spiffycat
(May 14, 2019 - 9:25 am)

*More hugs*

submitted by Rogue Wildling
(May 14, 2019 - 12:27 pm)

*hugs*

submitted by Aquamarine, age XII, In the Clouds
(May 14, 2019 - 9:59 am)

I love all the hugssss *hugs back*

submitted by Rogue Wildling
(May 14, 2019 - 12:27 pm)

Oh, Rogue. *hugs* You’re awesome. You’re not a bad guy, and you will definitely amount to something. In my eyes, you are hilarious, smart, and incredibly amazing. Don’t forget that.

submitted by Summer, age pi, Nowhere at all
(May 15, 2019 - 10:08 am)

*hugs* Rogue, I get it. But I hope you know that none of that is really true about you. Those voices in your head telling you those things—I hope they learn to shut up, because it isn’t fair that you think that way about yourself. I think you’re a quite awesome person, actually. A better one than me, at any rate. And I’ve always admired your resilience and inner strength. I’m praying for you; stay strong. <3

submitted by Leeli
(May 15, 2019 - 12:12 pm)

*hugs* I'm sorry for whatever you're going through, Rogue, and I wish I could help in any way. The CB is always here if you need to talk, and I hope you know that you're an amazing person. You're not the bad guy, even though I know it's easy to feel that way, and you will amount to so, so much. *more hugs*

submitted by Quill
(May 15, 2019 - 4:59 pm)

This reminds me of You Say by Lauren whats her name

submitted by Spiffycat
(May 15, 2019 - 8:05 pm)