Chatterbox: Pudding's Place

is it juggling

or balancing

this act i'm putting on?

i've heard both

i don't understand much

maybe i'm not cut out for this

set of tired eyes

these committments i can't keep track of

p r o c r a s t i n a t e

calls that voice from my phone

my computer, my tv

is it the same voice that tells me 

i'm not good enough?

work hard

and you'll have the world at your fingertips

if not?

work harder

i have a lot

of really close

acquaintances (not friends)

but it's fine

i'm just really tired, ok

and really overdramatic

you know how i can get

"those theater kids"

i turn a deaf ear

to that girl

making plans right next to me

knowing i'm there and not inviting me

it's ok

i'm ok

i don't even like that girl that much anyway 

or that boy who stopped saying hi in the hallways 

none of this will matter

in thirty years

so just work

just work hard

and if you still forget an assignment?

or forget to study again?

or lose another friend?

or cry?

work harder.