"Expectations"

Chatterbox: Pudding's Place

"Expectations"

"Expectations"

By aFountainPen

~~

Hey

So

I'm new.

Well, I'm not.

But some parts of me are.

Like my insecurities.

Those things I used to keep hidden?

Yeah they're here now.

Or my ideas.

They used to be different.

Well, I mean,

They're always going to be different

But you get what I mean

I think I have social anxiety

Because I'm doubting whether I should write this

And I'm scared someone will find judgement

Even though

I know you

I know you

And I know you wouldn't do that

But I can't make my heart believe what my brain says

Because

I guess

There's a difference in ambition?

I don't know

People think I'm ambitious

But the only people that matter don't.

So I guess

Does that mean

I'm 

Not

Ambitious?

What does it matter anyway

I'm here now

And I'll talk into the void

Until someone is there to listen.

~~

Guess who I am.  There's a post on Inkwell about me.

That's about it. 

submitted by aFountainPen, age 14, I'll tell you later
(August 26, 2018 - 4:13 pm)

back to the Pudding's Place

*Shoots hand up* I'll listen! Are you Spring Flower or Red Tailed Panda...?

submitted by Rogue Wildling
(August 26, 2018 - 9:56 pm)
submitted by top
(August 27, 2018 - 12:49 pm)
submitted by TOP
(August 27, 2018 - 12:57 pm)

I'm here to listen. I also have some social anxiety. There will always be someone to put me down, hurt me, and insult me. It's me. I am my own worst enemy, but there are always people to be my allies. And maybe someday there'll be a truce, and perhaps there will not be any discord anymore.

Your family is there to listen, and possibly interrupt when the time is right. Your friends are there to listen.

You just need to speak.

And sometimes, the void answers back. 

submitted by Chinchilla
(August 27, 2018 - 6:35 pm)

Are you Lucy B?

(I’m sorry this post isn’t very deep but that’s all I could think of.) 

submitted by Blue Moon, age 11, Here
(August 28, 2018 - 6:51 pm)

Aye you got me!

submitted by aFountainPen, age 14, I'll tell you later
(August 28, 2018 - 9:05 pm)

Hey Lucy! I mean, hey aFountainPen!

...Should I post a list of inspirational music/music that's good for unleashing frustration on? I mean, it might not fit exactly, but... should I?

submitted by Agent Winter, Classified
(August 29, 2018 - 9:35 am)

Hey, friend :) I just wanted to say, that I kinda understand what you’re feeling. Obviously, it is quite impossible or at the very least improbable for me to completely understand, but I can try. I can listen, too. Please know that you’re not alone, and whatever you are going through, someone is going through the same thing. If you ever need to talk, I’m here, and I mean it. I’ll pray for you. Just remember that no matter what it is, no matter what you are feeling, it’s all temporary. Someday you are going to rise on the other side, fists raised in triumph, and you’re going to realize how strong you truly are. 

I hope you have a good day/night :)

-Night 

submitted by Nighthawk, age -15, Before You Start Your Day
(August 29, 2018 - 12:00 am)

aFountainPen 

glides

across paper

carfully inking

something beautiful.

We

are all artists.

We

are all diffrent.

That 

is what makes us

wonderful.

A new perspective

can change the world.

Don't ever think 

that you are

not good enough.

Because in this 

uncertain world

there will always 

be someone

loving you.

We will treasure

every word

every idea

every sketch

that comes from your heart. 

submitted by Spring Flower, 春乌艾
(September 1, 2018 - 12:43 pm)