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I'm crushed.
I'm crushed.
My hopes and dreams have been shattered. So, I'm doing the play Dear Edwina over the next two weeks, and I wanted the lead (Edwina, duh). Unfortuanatly, it's a musical and I'm not a strong singer, per say. So I was considered for the role, but the director decided to not cast me as Edwina because my voice isn't strong enough.
That would be sort of okay (well, not really) except the person who got the lead is a total jerk who is all in your face and can't read that well. Well, no, she can read, but she mispronounces every other word and has no rhythm to her voice. It wouldn't bother me as much if it wasn't she who got the part, but it was, and I'm crushed, and I hope I don't have to work with her that closely.
Except everything I'm in is with her. Well, almost everything. But it isn't fair, and I'm mad she got it because, even though I wouldn't have got it, there were way more deserving people that could have gotten it.
But, "She sings pretty." And so she got it.
And guess what I got? Annie. A support yes, but no fun solos and about 20 lines in the whole play. Great.
I know I'm being stupid and arrogant, but I'm just so upset with myself for not being an amazing singer that I just... Ah!!!!
*Head desk
Okay, I'm calm, I'm calm. I just am mad at myself for not being better. You know the feeling? And for someone like me? I am just so angry that I didn't do better and I didn't succeed that I don't know what to do with myself.
Please excuse my ranting and selfish attitude, but:
*Spotlight
"I'M ONLY HUMAN!!!"
* voice cracks, causing dejected-looking girl to sulk to her room to read and write and stuff.
I'm sorry, S.E. Life has downs as well as ups. Be the best possible Annie. This experience will make you stronger. Maybe you'll get parts in non musicals. And you could consider taking voice lessons, too.
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(July 14, 2015 - 8:16 pm)
(July 14, 2015 - 8:16 pm)
I wanted to be the lead in a play I'm in as well, but I got a part that doesn't even enter until the last line of page 26 in the script.
(July 15, 2015 - 6:29 am)
Stupid singing voice.
(July 15, 2015 - 8:48 pm)
That's too bad, S.E. I'm sorry you didn't get the part.
I sympathize, though. My singing voice is famed around the world as something you do not want to hear (okay, just joking, but it's bad). Not saying yours is bad, but just that I would know how you feel.
Last school year (5th grade, I mean) our school did I production of The Tempest. I really, really, really love the play, but I couldn't figure out how to audition, so instead of being the marvelous Ariel (or at least Trinculo!) I ended up sitting around backstage doing absolutely nothing and pretending I was a crucial part of stage crew.
Another time, I was an actor in the play Fairy Tale Courtroom (which, if you look up, you can find videos of). I was trying out for the role of D.A, a fun and complicated part that was basically the head role (although there really wasn't a specific one) and ended up with the role of one of the accused, the witch. It wasn't a bad part, but it wasn't one I wanted. However, it was still really fun!
What I'm trying to say is, even though I know it isn't the most comforting thing, it happens to everyone, S.E. And at least you got a part to play!
(July 15, 2015 - 9:24 pm)
S.E. I'm really sorry you did not get the part you wanted. But at least you got a part!
(July 19, 2015 - 8:04 am)
I love musicals, and I think I have a prety good voice, but last year I failed my audition and was basically in the ensemble. I had one line that wasn't even in the script. I was upset at first, but it was my first time so what do you expect, but I memorized the whole play and still had fun. Make the most of your part, and you may stand out as better than the main part. Besides, 20 lines are better than 1.
(July 22, 2015 - 6:41 am)
I know... life is horrible sometimes.
But you always find a way to move on, even if it involves burying your anger and disappointment in lots and lots of books.
And that's my suggestion. Seethe and bury the anger in books and things until in develops into acid and, after corroding, evaporates away. It works. I do it.
(July 22, 2015 - 10:32 am)
Oh that's really awful. I'm so sorry.
I get that kind of depression, too, when I don't get the part I want. What I do is lock myself in my room and cry for a few hours, but it usually doesn't help. What does (for me at least) is thinking about the next play and I'll get the next part I want. What also helps is chocolate. It helps everything.
I hope you feel better- and don't worry about feeling arrogant, because you aren't. You've got every right to be mad.
(July 22, 2015 - 5:32 pm)
Chocolate helps because it increases serotonin production. Lack of serotonin is associated with disorders such as clinical depression.
*sits down, sighs, and waits for the inevitable "...I have no idea what you just said" comment*
(July 23, 2015 - 11:26 am)
I have no idea...
KIDDING!!!
I know excactly what you're talking about. Weird, nerdy me.
My part is horrible. I am a dunderheaded girl scout who is a hopeless, clueless romantic that matches every "Dumb Blonde" description in the book.
(July 23, 2015 - 9:10 pm)
Your part is quite good compared to the one l got in a Shakespeare play. lt was the part of Trinculo, the drunken jester.
Believe me, you've got a pretty good part.
(July 24, 2015 - 7:54 pm)
I'm sorry to hear all that, S.E. It's true, a lot of musicals are cast because of a singing voice... And I know I've known a couple of leads with bad attitudes. But you shouldn't let it get to you. You should have fun in your role and fun with the other people in the play! After all, you share at least one interest with everyone there--why else would you be there? Don't let that one person get to you--I think you can still have a grand time altogether.
(July 25, 2015 - 9:46 pm)
Rosario: I love playing stupid characters. (I actually do.) So your part's not that bad. Often it takes more talent to play a character who acts mean and/or vain and/or stupid than to play a likeable one. I know that in all the plays I watch, the actors I like are the ones who play bad characters. So your part is fine.
Applejaguar: RosariotheRedPandaBlossom, stop trying to make her feel better. Sometimes people just need to be sad. S.E., I feel your pain. Isn't it awful how the worst people sometimes get the best parts? But remember, everyone on the CB is rooting for you. However, I understand that it's a bummer you didn't get Edwina.
Rosario: You can't feel bad forever. Enjoy life! Enjoy the play! You'll have other chances!
Applejaguar: I'm not sure you're helping, Rosario. Anyway,S.E.as Katie so well put it, you have every right to be angry. But it won't last forever. It's just one of those annoying, awful things in life that you'll feel better about and that will be ok.
Rosario: Who knows? Maybe the obnoxious girl will be sick and you'll get the lead.
Both in unison: I'm sorry, S.E.
That was such an akward post. I'm embarrassed. But basically I'm just trying to make you feel better. Is the play over now? Your original post was a long time ago.
(August 24, 2015 - 7:31 pm)