Amber Herself
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Amber Herself
Amber Herself
A novel
Chapter One: The Talent Show
Watkins Middle School was certainly big on their annual talent show. It had barely been a month into the school year when they started having announcements about it in homeroom and posters advertising it in every hallway. But it was no surprise-- the school was full of talented kids encouraged to exercise their talents-- dancers, musicians, actors, artists, athletes-- practically everything you could think of.
As soon as the results from the talent show auditions came back, Amber Davidson knew that, like last year, it would be practically the only thing her friends would talk about. She hadn't particularly minded it before, but the endless chatter about talent show acts could get kind of boring and repetitive. Everything, from the art display in the hallway to the refreshments at intermission, seemed to be worthy of unending scrutiny.
On the way to the cafeteria, Amber wondered how long it would take for her friends to start talking about the show. In the whirl between classes that morning she hadn't gotten a chance to talk to them, and she guessed they'd start talking as soon as they had sat down.
Amber plopped down at an empty table, and started fishing her lunch out of her backpack while scanning the crowded room for her friends. When she caught sight of them she called for them to come over above the deafening chatter. The four of them had stuck together since first grade.
"So are you guys doing anything for the talent show?" asked Olivia, even before she had sat down, even before Amber had scheduled.
"I'm going to be--" Corrie began.
"Playing an impossibly difficult piano piece perfectly," Rose finished for her.
"Rose! How did you know?" Corrie retorted, pretending to be indignant. But Amber could see she was smiling.
Amber thought she would describe Rose as looking angelically indignant. "Why, I know everything!"
They laughed.
"I'm entering some sketches in the intermission art display, of course. And I'm doing the skit with Thomas and Shahira," Olivia said excitedly.
"I didn't know you were into acting," said Rose. "Good for you!"
Olivia blushed. "Well, not exactly. Mainly I'll just be doing the props, costumes, and scenery."
"And I'm sure they'll be gorgeous," said Rose.
"Wait-- did you say Thomas Cordero?" asked Corrie. "Oh my gosh he is so cute! I had such a crush on him last year!"
Olivia blushed again. "Same! But I'm pretty sure he likes Lisa more than me."
"Ugh, you mean Lisa Angler? Not to be mean or anything, but she's kind of a bummer."
"I know, right? Like, she's nice, but she never does anything."
"Um, let's get back on topic. What are you doing for the talent show, Amber?" asked Rose.
"Maybe I'll be an usher again," Amber said, looking at her sandwich. "I don't really like being on stage."
The truth was that she didn't know what she would do even if she wanted to be onstage. Amber liked to read and could do it pretty quickly, but she didn't think that would count as a talent-show talent.
Rose or Corrie could probably think of some way to incorporate reading into an act. They were smart kids and was pretty creative besides. Rose would have Amber do something like narrating a pantomime, or reading a short story out loud. Amber smiled inwardly when she realized she was doing her friend's thinking for her, but she thought Rose could probably think of something better-- Amber always stumbled over the words when she read anything out loud.
But her family would want her to participate in some way. Brooklyn, her older sister who was now a freshman, had baked treats for the intermission and sang songs with some of her friends. Drew, her older brother who was now a senior, had done different things different years-- a comedy act, being drummer for a student band, and a magic show.
"She's daydreaming again," said Olivia, not unkindly.
"Am-ber," Rose said in a sing-song voice, leaning over the table so that the tips of her hair brushed over her lunch and her face was right in front of Amber's. "Are you listening?"
"Now I am," said Amber, smiling sheepishly. She was always trying to pay attention, but her mind liked to wander. It helped if she took notes, but it would be really weird to do that during the lunch hour. What would the others think of her?
"Well," said Rose, "I was just saying that I got picked by the talent show committee to do the things between acts. You know, where someone does funny commentary or tells jokes or something? I asked if I could choose someone to do it with me, and they said I could. Would you?"
Rose seemed to be being honest, but Amber was not fooled. There was no reason Rose would want Amber to do anything onstage with her. Amber would be sure to mess up, and what could she be supposed to so in the first place, anyway? Rose was funny and smart and creative and a good actress. Amber thought she could probably make everybody in the talent show to-do lists pretty well, but nothing on stage. Come to think of it, why was Rose even asking her?
"Well?" Rose looked like she was wanting Amber to do it, almost pleading Amber to do it. But you could never tell what that girl was thinking behind her wide-frame glasses.
"No thanks, Rose."
"Amber, why not? It would be fun-- we could practice together. You wouldn't have to say much. And you wouldn't have to be an usher all by yourself."
So that's what it was all about. Rose was just doing this out of pity, wanting to give the girl destined to be a mere usher a chance and show the world for once and for all how kind Queen Rosie really was. "No!" It came out sharper than Amber had expected it to, than she had wanted it to. "I don't like going on stage. You should know that by now, Rose Wagner."
Corrie and Olivia exchanged worried glances. Rose flushed and looked at her lap. Amber flushed even more and looked at her lap. If only she could travel back in time a minute or so and give herself a good knock over the head! Amber never lost her temper.
"Well, if that's how you feel, then, I take back my offer," Rose said, a little coldly.
For the rest of the lunch, Rose seemed to say a little less than usual. As for Amber, she said nothing at all, pretty sure that Rose was going to be mad at her for the rest of her life.
After lunch, the girls separated. Amber walked in silence with Corrie to science while Rose and Olivia went to social studies in the opposite direction.
Amber didn't want to talk to Corrie. She was Rose's best friend, and probably hated Amber as well.
"You should have taken Rose up on her offer," Corrie said, a little timidly.
"Why?"Amber asked.
"She needs you."
Corrie went ahead to talk with some other friends, and Amber continued alone. Rose needing her? What a crazy idea!
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I'm starting to write my first real novel, and that was the first chapter. What do you think? Constructive criticism is welcome! I'll try to post the second chapter in the next few days.
(March 12, 2018 - 9:12 pm)
I really like this Astrid! Keep up the great work! I'm excited to read more!
(March 12, 2018 - 10:50 pm)
(March 12, 2018 - 10:51 pm)
(March 13, 2018 - 12:23 am)
Thanks, Cockleburr!
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Chapter Two
Less Than Average
When Amber got home from school, she didn't stop in the kitchen for a snack but headed straight up to her room. She needed to be finally be alone for a while after being surrounded by a swirl of people all day.
Amber stood in front of her dresser, trying to figure out what had happened and what her friends thought of her after her outburst. Rose, the talent show, Olivia, Rose, getting angry, Corrie, Rose...
Amber's logical side was pretty sure she was just making a mountain out of a molehill, but everything of late had been so confusing. New thoughts and old memories and unpredictable feelings swirled around in her head and made her brain dizzy. Puberty, Amber thought, and made a face at herself in the mirror on her dresser.
Amber's part in her hair looked crazy, zig-zagging around. Did I go through the whole day like this? she wondered.
Attacking her head with a brush, Amber wished that she could make her boring brown hair be less boring. Rose, in her opinion, was gorgeous. Her red hair seemed exciting yet sophisticated, and was long and easy to work with, while Amber's was slick and too short to even be put into a braid. And, unlike Amber, she had very little acne to plague her.
And Rose always knew the right thing to wear. Amber usually wore ordinary jeans and t-shirts. Nobody would give her any notice about her looks. Usually Amber liked being average; it was safer that way.
But right now she wished she were more than that.
And she was pretty sure she was less. Though she always did her homework on time, it never got the greatest scores. She was afraid of catching balls, and if one came flying towards her in a game she'd run away and lose her team a point. If she threw a ball it would go anywhere that wasn't far in front of her, and if she kicked it it might even go behind her.
All of her friends were talented. Both Olivia and Rose were good at sports-- Olivia was a track star and Rose the pitcher for the softball team. Corrie wasn't very athletic, though she was decent in gym class, but was always the top student in the class and a talented pianist besides. Rose got straight A's too. Olivia had more trouble academically, but was an amazing artist.
If Amber drew a picture, she had to tell other people what it was of. And she had given up on music after being asked to just mouth the words in sixth grade chorus.
And that wasn't all. The last time Amber had tried to cook pasta, she burned herself with the pot and didn't add enough water so that the noodles all stuck together. In crowds she constantly bumped into people, or stopped suddenly so that they bumped into her. If Amber tried to write a story she'd grow tired of it within minutes and never finish it, unless it was for school in which case she could never figure out how to end it and had the characters constantly wake up from dreams or discover superpowers they'd never been mentioned having before.
Her friends were good at all of those things. Not just good, great. Especially Rose.
After puttering around her room for a while, making a homework schedule and checking "school" off her to-do list, Amber decided it was time to go down to the kitchen and say hello to her mom.
"What's up, Amber?" asked Mrs. Davidson, stirring the spaghetti sauce.
"Oh, nothing." Amber knew that she wasn't going to fool her mom with that, but she wanted a little extra time to think, as she couldn't possibly tell them anything about Rose.
"Is anything wrong, Amber?" said Mrs. Davidson.
"I guess it's because none of my friends are going to be ushers with me for the talent show."
"Well, if that's all, you needn't worry. You'll be too busy to notice."
But it was true that Amber was worried. Last year, Olivia had been an usher with her, and Amber smiled and ran around fetching things while Olivia braved talking to the parents. This year, however, she would have to talk to complete strangers all by herself, if only to hand them a program. She hated to have to look people in the eye, it was so bewildering. Be like Rose, Amber told herself. She wouldn't be scared of something like this.
"Why aren't you going to be in the talent show?" asked Amber's older sister, Brooklyn, who she had thought to be too busy texting someone to pay attention to the conversation. Perhaps that was Brooklyn's talent, multitasking.
"There's nothing I can do," Amber whined. "I'm not good at anything!"
"Nonsense, honey," said Mrs. Davidson, emptying a bag of lettuce into the salad bowl. "You're good at plenty of things, though they may not be things you could do in a talent show. You're very tidy and organized. You're always teaching yourself new things... you're thoughtful and sweet.... you read all the time and have a great vocabulary… you'd be good at your schoolwork if you just tried a little harder…" Her voice grew a little sharper with that last statement. "Oh, help me out here Brooke."
"You're good at being annoying…"
"Me or her?" asked Mrs. Davidson, amused.
"Depends if you mean mom-annoying, or little-sister-annoying." Brooklyn, done texting, set her phone on the counter and went to the fridge to fetch the salad dressing. "Mom-annoying is like bugging you forever about doing some chore or your homework or something. Little-sister-annoying is just… well… annoying." Brooklyn drizzled some dressing onto the lettuce and grinned at Amber. "So yeah, mostly Amber."
"Mom, none of those are real talents," said Amber. Though being annoying did take some skill and forethought. "Can't you think of anything else?"
"You're a help around the house, dear." Mrs. Davidson was getting tired of this conversation. "So would you please just set the table?"
When Mr. Davidson got back from work and Drew returned from photography club they had dinner. Not really listening to the talk of work and school and politics, Amber remained silent in her own little world. She knew she needed to tell someone, if not about getting mad at Rose, about her being bad at everything. Someone who could sympathize and actually help her. Someone who could make her feel better about herself. And she knew just who that would be.
(March 13, 2018 - 4:44 pm)
This is so cute! I'm really enjoying the story and can't wait to find out what happens to Amber, Rose, and the rest. Keep up the great work! :D
(March 13, 2018 - 6:40 pm)