I am never
Chatterbox: Inkwell
I am never
I am never going to join another roleplay.
Not in 2018 at least.
Because whenever I join a roleplay that I think is cool, I end up having to quit on everyone. Roleplays are no longer something that I can have fun with; I'm not good at writing under pressure. See, I only get 30 minutes of computer time each day; I get maybe about an hour and fifteen minutes on Fridays and Sundays but generally, only half an hour. Strictly. And...I always forget, I always think that maybe it will be different this time, but I always join a roleplay. And I always have to drop out. And it hurts me to give up on people but I can't take the pressure. I can write perfectly well (by my standards) if I have time to think about it even a little bit, but on weekdays when I have 30 minutes and I have to read through people's RP posts, then form ideas and write, and maybe revise, and stick with the general idea of what the roleplay characters are doing, it's just not conceivably possibly for me to do it and I usually end up deleting all my sloppy writing...and then my timer goes off and I have to turn the computer off. I can't take pressure. And then I feel horrible for ditching everyone in whatever roleplay I happen to be quitting.
And most days I don't even have time to write; I have to check all the rest of the Chatterbox and maybe reply to emails or look things up on Google. And even then sometimes I don't have enough time to do it all.
So I've decided to stop. I'm going to stop joining roleplays, I am not going to join another roleplay for this entire year or at least until I can work out my situation and appeal to my parents for more computer time. No more roleplays. No more joining them, at least. Maybe at some point I'll try to revive the CB Disaster Thread and work on that. But I know for sure that it'll die again, because I'm just not able to dedicate myself to things.
I apologize to everyone I've ever ditched in a roleplay; and especially to the Inception RPers that I'm about to quit on. I am so, so sorry.
~Leafpool
(January 19, 2018 - 2:47 pm)
Hey, it's ok. It's ok, Leafpool. I'm sure we all know the feeling of having too much on our plates and not enough time to do it, so good for you for knowing how much is too much. Of course I was looking forward to working on another RP with you, but I understand and respect your decision, as I'm sure we all do. Good for you for understanding yourself and knowing your own strengths and weaknesses. You're a brave, smart person for doing this. *hugs* Love you, friend.
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TOP
(January 21, 2018 - 1:40 pm)
Top! And thank you for understanding, Cockleburr. <3
(January 22, 2018 - 4:23 pm)
It's alright Leafpool! <3 I totally understand. I hope the situation does get better.
I’m glad you’re not leaving the CB though! ^^
(January 22, 2018 - 7:53 pm)
I totally know the feeling. I have a lot of homework, and the only real time I have to write is 20 minutes on the bus, and occasionally in the evening if I finished my homework. RPs move so quickly, and you know you only have a short window to write and post before the plot evolves and your writing is useless. Since there's about 10 hours in between my two writing blocks, this happens a lot. Keep on writing, and I hope you can roleplay again soon!
(January 22, 2018 - 9:11 pm)
I understand, Leafpool. It's hard when you're under pressure, I personally cannot write well at all under pressure, I get it. It's okay, I am pretty sure that your parents will understand! You're a really great writer, and i really enjoy your posts, I understand not wanting to feel like you're ditching everyone. I've been on the other side of the spectrum, where I'm the only one on a dead RP, and trust me, those feelings are very similar, like you can't do anythng and just.... ugh.
But I don't hate you or dislike you for that, it's just life. I get about an hour or more on the computer tops, but I usually just scan the posts and don't revise a lot on my posts. (As you may well see in my sloppy posts =P)
So, it's okay! I understand!
Nu Hurd ferlings.
Peace, Love, and Pie
-Chinchilla
(January 23, 2018 - 7:53 pm)
Thank you all. And girl on fire, thanks for completely understanding what I meant to say. I can never get straight to the point.
(January 25, 2018 - 1:20 pm)