I'm going to make a long rant that isn't nearly as anyone else's, so be warned. You don't have to read this.

I currently have only 1 friend, and we aren't very close.

In kindergarten, I had a best friend. I thought she was really nice. Then, in 1st grade, she switched schools and I didn't (I'm public schooled) and I had no friends at my school now that she was gone and my other
school friend was in a different class and we didn't have recess at the
same time as me, and we didn't have each other's phone numbers and had
never been that close in the first place. Later, we started arguing. She thought I whined too much. I don't remember whether or not it was true. I still wanted her as my friend, and kept inviting her over to my house to try to fix, but she ended up going only because she had a crush on my brother. I didn't care why she went.  I was desperate to keep the friends I had. So, I kept inviting her over. She eventually stopped coming, stating that she no longer wished to be my friend and that my brther wasn't worth it anymore.

In 2nd grade, I got a new best friend—I'll call her Idra. She was an amazing person. We did almost everything together. We could've probably still been friends now, if not for... Well, in 3rd grade, I moved to a different city. I tried to keep in touch with her via phone and e-mail, but my mom's phone (the one she would call me on, as a didn't have a phone of me own nor even a home phone) stopped working before I could give her my dad's number, and when I tried to call her, she never answered. I don't know if she wasn't allowed to accept calls from numbers she didn't recognize or what—although I doubt that was it. I left a voice mail message each time. As for e-mail... She just never replied.

In 4th grade, I got 2 other best friends, who were best friends with each other as well. 1 of them (I'll call her Alissa) was really nice, and the other (Um... Kathleen!)... She was extremely nice to me, but sometimes she could be really rude to people she didn't consider to be her friends. I'm sorry to say that I tried my best to ignore it, because I could tell that if I didn't, I'd have no friends at all.

Later, Idra finally answered me when I called. She said her phone hadn't been working. I'm not sure if I believe her or not—she sometimes had a tendency  to lie. We talked, and I really enjoyed it. She said she was moving, though—to a city even farther away. That must have been true. When I tried to call her back later, my phone just beeped and said that her number no longer existed. It must have been changed.

Then, in 5th grade, Kathleen and I started arguing. we wanted to be friends, but it was awkward. When we weren't arguing, we didn't know what to talk about. We didn't seem to have anything in common anymore. The samewent for Alissa, but we didn't argue In fact, I've never seen her argue with anyone. And if Kathleen and I argued in front of her, she'd just sit and wait for us to stop. Sometimes I feel really bad about it. :(

We came to a point when they both just kept whispering in each other's ears, when I was right there. When I asked about what they were saying, they wouldn't tell. They said it was about 1 of their friend's secrets, which is fine, but am I the only one who thinks it's a little rude to talk about it right in front of me?

Kathleen and I had a major argument. It ended our friendship. I think Alissa felt like she had to choose between 1 of us or something (which doesn't make a grain of sense to me, but you know what people are like sometimes) and she kind of stopped being my friend too. Over the summer, she called me again, but...

However, I'd been in a choir that year. I eventually managed to make a friend in it, but she's not in any of my classes now. And she's not like a best friend or anything, just a friend.

I don't have any other friends at all right now. I don't think I'm likely to get more. I haven't had any since 5th grade after all. I'm horrible at starting conversations, and most people treat me like some alien creature because I'm vegan, I don't watch television at all, I actually care whether an animal lives or dies, I *gasp* read when I'm not required to for school(!!!!!) (No one else ever does where I'm from), I don't bother saying the word gasp out loud when I can just do it, I don't want an iPod or a better phone, I apologize too much, I enjoy learning... *rants for hours on supposed weirdness*. Get the point?

Why people hold those things against me  I have no idea. I'm also practically the only person who doesn't go around insulting people, but that's a different matter. 

But I just don't have anything in common with the people around me. I can't  talk to them because there's nothing to talk about. And if I try to talk it always ends up with 1 of us ranting about something the other person has never heard of and doesn't understand.

I just hate it.

I know this thread is really old, but I was using the newly discovered Google search message to find threads, and this came up, and I felt a need to post here. I don't know why...

Maybe I should take it to the top.

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*sigh*