Aaaahhhhh.

For most of elementary school, I didn't really have friends. I was fine with it, then, but now, I wish I had changed that. In fourth grade I became friends with another girl, who I'll call Tulip. I was good friends with her through fifth grade. In March of fifth grade, Covid and quarantine hit. After that, Tulip and I didn't communicate much. In the summer after, I started to become friends with her more, and I also became friends with another girl Tulip knew, who I'll call Poppy. I remained good friends with Tulip and Poppy through 6th grade. I was homeschooled, and Poppy and Tulip were doing distance learning. Then I started going to middle school for 7th grade, and Poppy and Tulip did too, but they went to a different school. I started school in August. I didn't have the courage to sit down with a group of people until October. So, they were already good friends. For the rest of 7th grade, and through 8th grade, most of them have been nice enough. Not intentionally welcoming, but plenty nice. Except one girl, who I will call Zinnia. Zinnia was nice to me at first, but then started excluding me. And all the other girls seem to like her, and it seems to me that she goes out of her way to exclude me from things. I've confronted her about a few of them, but she acts like it was accidental and promises to change, but she never does. And I want to be with friends that all welcome me, but I don't want to let go of all my other friends. 

So there's my rant.