If you feel like your friends aren't your friends anymore, it's a good idea to talk it over with them. Even if they don't want to be friends anymore, at least you'll understand more. And for the other things, you do not have to worry that you're "failing" because there will always be people who are amazed or impressed at a skill you have. Everyone has something that will impress others, and it can't really fail. That's all. 

*hugs* Oh, I know exactly how you feel. (well, maybe not exactly, but that's beside the point)

If your friends don't feel like your friends anymore, take a break. Just sort of cool off for a day or two, then come back and try again. If they still don't feel like your friends, they're probably not.

And, no, you are not failing. You are amazing, everyone is amazing.

I have a lot on my mind, too. I have a lot on my mind all the time, so that's nothing new.

I'm sorry you had a fight with OddsAndEnds.

This might not help. I'm sorry if it didn't help. But, just know; I'm here for you, the CB is here for you. We can help. Don't worry, we're here. <3 

You don't have to do anything you don't want to. There is no reason you have to take over her account, she doesn't control you. Friendship is messy, and I don't have much experience, so let's move on to other stuff. A good strategy for feeling like you're generally failing is to take a deep breath and remind yourself what's real, what's important. (Believe it or not, I partially got that from Katniss Everdeen.) I find that reading is a good calming activity. As for art, I find that the best thing to do is practice. Or, you can take a break from it. Your choice. Anyway, I hope this helped.

hey.

listen, okay?

your art is not failing.

the biggest failure is not trying.

you have to keep trying.

i feel like im failing too sometimes.

i say things i dont mean and that gets me into a lot of fights.

i get worked up and start cursing.

people never like me.

a person who at the beginning of the schoolyear said that we would be best friends didn't want to be my friend anymore and now shes just plain mean to me. 

nite, your friends- well, if you feel like you cant take over their acc, then dont. 

you are loved.

somewhere out there, there is someone who will find you, and love you. 

it's all in the stars.

it's written in the stars.

it's written in your fate

i know, i sound really weird right now.

but please, believe me...

i'm going to put this as simply as i can.

you are not alone.

you. 

are.

not.

alone.

well, sadness is an unexplainable thing. 

it's like being lonely.

the wolves.

fierce but lonely.

that's why they howl at the moon.

in hopes that somebody will find them. 

the dark.

cold and frightening.

but light overcomes it.

you see, i once said, "in every situation of light, there will always be darkness. watch your back." 

we can flip that around. 

"in every dark situation, there will always be light."

how did i get to this?

because light doesn't exist without dark. 

and dark doesn't exist without light. 

mind if i tell a few stories of my own? 

sure, ill just tell them. 

my friends: i have no friends. my first true friend, from 3rd grade, she's at a different school. she lives in fremont. i dont even have her zoom contact anymore. just her email...

and she's found better friends.

sometimes, i look up at the moon, and wonder...

why me?

why is it me that's always just stepped on, like a stepping stone?

people use me...

they hurt me...

they break my trust...

there was this girl, let's call her...s. s was my best friend in 2nd grade- *pauses to wipe tear away* im totally not crying 'cause im listening to sad songs like legends never die, dynasty, rewrite the stars, and other stuff.. *short laugh*- but in 3rd grade...she seemed to have changed. she used me- she stole my things, she took my snacks and whatever without permission...she framed me for stealing a thing i didn't even know she had! then in 5th grade, she had the audacity to ask me for my schools entrance exam's questions and their answers. 

my friend faced the same thing, except worse.

my classmate was constantly poked fun at bc of his accent, he was tripped and people threw stones at him and beat him up (still looking for that bully that hit him with a stone, looking to break his nose, yes im overprotective of my classmates, 'cause of my empathy)

some of my classmates were called 'fish boi' and 'f-boy' or whatever.

i know its crazy, isn't it.

the world we live in today?

but wasn't it always?

no, it wasn't.

we.

humans.

yes, humans.

we are the cause of evil.

to wipe out evil would be to wipe out humans, a wise friend once told me. 

~th3mysticw0lf 

I've totally been in your shoes!!

I agree that talking it over with your friends can really help, and they may not even notice that they're making you feel that way.

But if you truly don't feel like your friends are you friends, then they aren't. And that's okay, too!

Making new friends isn't always easy, but just try to be social, and say hi to people!! I don't know if you are back in real school yet (if you go to school at all!), but if you do, make an effort to be social, and maybe try stitting with other people at lunch (if you have lunch! At my in-person school we don't have lunch due to covid). And if you do school over zoom, you can still make friends! I have a friend who I only recently met in person, but we've been friends ever since last year (over zoom)!

And also remember that, although it may seem like everyone around you has a best friend and is doing great, a lot of them aren't, and you most definitely aren't the only one who is questioning who your friends are.

Also, how would your art be failing?! It's definitely not failing. :) 

And about OddsAndEnds, I know how you feel, both about being in a fight, and about having a friend move away. 

As for being in a fight, I don't know what it's about, but I would definitely talk it over with her (it's a her, right?), as a lot of times, one person may think that they're in a fight with their friend, while their friend might not even realize that their were any problems in the relationship!

And it's also really hard when friends move away. I had a friend when I was in fourth grade, and she was my BESTEST BESTEST BESTEST friend ever!! She came over to my house almost every day, and she and her sister were basically like my second family!!

So when she moved away, it was really hard, and extremely heart-breaking.

It was also really hard because I was sad that she moved, but I was also happy. When she was living in my neighborhood, she was in foster care. So she moved to go be with her mom and be reunited with all her sisters. This made my feelings super complicated, because I was both happy and sad at the same time!!

But long-distance relationships can still work!! Of course, we're not as close as we were before, but we still FaceTime every now and then, and etc. 

Also note that if the relationship seems to drift away after OddsAndEnds moved, that's okay too. Nothing is permanent!

Hope that helps,

Clementine :) 

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I'm not going to pretend like I know what you're feeling and going through. I've never really had a lot of friends, the ones I have I hardly see, because life and location. 

Ask yourself this: Do I have fun when I visit my friends? Do I look forwards to seeing them? Do I miss them when they aren't at school?  

If the answer is no... then I don't think they're your friends. And if you're starting to drift apart from your friends, then that's ok.

The friends you have now are not going to be your friends forever. You're all going to grow up and find new friends, friends that are better suited to you. 

I used to have a good friend back when I was in elementary school and living near the city, we would have so much fun together, but then we moved and stopped seeing each other. Now we hardly ever talk, but that's OK, because I found some new friends near my new home in the country.

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Nothing in life is ever going to stay the same. In this world, there is nothing, no one, you can rely 100% on. Because we are human and we make mistakes.

As a Christian, I have one person who's going to stay the same, forever and forever. God, He's the same as He always was and will continue to. I get comfort in knowing that; that when my life is going crazy, I will have one person to rely on no matter what.

I'm not trying to force Christianity onto you, it's your choice if you want to go down this road, but as a Christian I also need to spread this knowledge. 

Try reading the Bible, if you do it might just change your life.

And, if you know any Christians, see if you can tag along to their youth group! Youth groups are fun and a great way to socialize outside of a school setting.  

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I hope some of this advice will help you deal with everything. And I'll be praying for you too, it's always good to get your spiritual health in the green before you focus on anything else. 

I'll leave you with a Bible verse, because that's what Christians do ;)

(This is one of my favorites)

Deuteronomy 31:6 "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you" 

I'm so sorry. I can sympathize with the friendship thing, things just feel weird these days. I have found I literally cannot talk to one of my friends. Okay, not literally, but he texted me on the group chat and I panicked. Long story. But yeah...it feels bad because I'm afraid I'll just have no friends, especially in 8th grade next year when school's in-person. I'm starting a hybrid school thing on Monday, and I'm stressed about that, too. Wait, this has just become me ranting about my own problems. Sorry! I'm not sure what to say about the whole failing thing. I can say that while motivational quotes and whatever keep telling me to live in the moment, I find that thinking about a future I'd really want to have always makes me feel better. So maybe don't live in the moment, if the moment is painful. Think about the perfect future. You could also think of happy memories, but sometimes that just makes me sad because everything feels so bleh right now. About Charlotte....that's really awful, and I'm sorry. I've never really had a big fight with a friend, though, so there's not much advice I can give you. I really hope things get better, though.

I guess bottom line is just keep going. Things will get easier. Hold on to happy moments. And we're always here for you! 

*hugs*

I'm really sorry you're going through all that. I don't have any good advice for your friend situation, other than if they don't feel like your friends anymore, you might need to step away from them and find new people. I know that can be really hard, though, so just do what feels right to you. 

As for your art, I'm positive you're not failing. Honestly, in art, there isn't such thing as failing. If you need a mental break in order to be able to be more creative later, that's fine. If you just need more practice, that's fine too. There is no failing. <3 

NiteSkiies-

I know how hard it is to feel like you are failing and that all of your friends are leaving you. Everyone's experince is unique, but I can say that you will be able to get through this, no matter how hard it feels right now! It is totally valid and OK to be experiencing hard emotions- theres nothing wrong with that. 

If you don't feel like your friends are your friends anymore, remember that it's not your fault. There is nothing wrong with you. Taking a break and not being afraid to explore other friends can be helpful. Or just taking the first step in reaching out to OddsAndEnds or other friends, and asking what they are actually thinking/feeling.

As for failing, you have to remember that you are extraordinary at so many things. Even though you might feel this way now, you will look back and see how amazing you actually have been doing!

Hope that helps, Lunar Rose