I understand. That's what I felt. I told myself I'd leave, but as soon as I did, I started lurking around more. And more. And then I unofficially joined again, and felt myself slipping. So I make a point to visit every few days, if not to post, then just to check up on things. It's ok to only half be here is what I mean, I guess. And what would you need to forget? You always seemed like a stable, mature person on here? I don't think there's anything to be ashamed of.

It's good to hear from you, Secret!

My mode of operation throughout my years here has been, "I'll leave when I leave and be gone when I'm gone." In other words, I participate in the things that interest me, and interest is what has kept me here. But my interests are constantly changing, and someday they'll outgrow the CB. I'm likely never going to officially leave, just fade away. But at that point, I'll be ready.

Keep coming on and posting if you enjoy it, and continue making & participating in the threads you enjoy! Don't leave until you're ready, but don't worry over it too much.