No, it's not whiny at all--don't apologize. And I'm really glad you said something, because I've been wanting to say something too but didn't really know how to.

I'm afraid you're wrong. Nobody does--or at least, I don't--think you're an idiot or 'that person'. And if anyone does, then they are missing out on an awesome, intelligent, and creative person. I can tell you've changed, that you ARE wiser and more mature, just in the way that you write and by this very thread. You don't have to say you've changed; it's apparent in your posts! I wouldn't be much of a friend if I couldn't see that. :)

Every time I see you post under a psuedonym, well, I miss you. I don't want you to hide behind a different name. Change happens to all of us. We all grow and mature. Don't be embarrassed of the person you were; be proud of the person you are now! Post under the name of the Chatterboxer I've come to know and love!

Now, I won't say your name if you don't want me to. But I do know who you are, and I really want you to come back! <3

I agree entirely with Micearenice. You shouldn't be ashamed of who you were-- rather, be proud of who you are. No matter who you are (and I do believe I know as well), we will welcome you back with open arms. Don't be afraid. <3

~Starseeker 

So, I have no idea who you are, and I think that proves something. I can't think of a single person who's "a dorky little girl with no knowledge of how this world worked" or who "stole and wanted attention in rps", or anything close to that. So yeah, maybe you used to be like that, but you're not anymore. And if people think of you that way, it's their loss. Just from the way you wrote that you seemed mature. I can't really put my finger on why very precisely, but I'll do my best. It might mostly be that you're admitting your past faults. That takes a lot of courage. The other big part I guess is that you sound worried, but it's a mature thing to be worried about. I mean, it's not taxes or anything like that, it's a different kind of mature. I can't explain that very well either.  If I had to pick one phrase that made me think this I would probably pick "And I hate it.". Because you know what? That does stink. And it's utterly unfair. And I guess I feel like you sense that unfairness, not in a whiny way, but in a way that's honestly upset about something unjust. So I guess there's two points to my posting of this, one, not everyone thinks of you that way, especially I bet amoung the young or young-ish CBers, and two, if people do feel that way, if you feel that it's unfair, you're right, and it's their loss and not your fault.

You could almost be me right now. I'm such an irregular poster, ignoring the CB for months at a time, drifting in and out. I don't think think people would think I'm an idiot, though, I'm just not sure if they would remember me. 

But I'm curious, how do you know that people think you're an idiot? It seems to me that you came to that conclusion because of what you think of yourself. Honestly, it's really hard to know what other people are thinking of you on an online forum. But what you consider to be massive blunders are probably not even a blip on someone else's radar. I would encourage you to move on from what you consider to be your past mistakes and to come back as yourself. Ciao.