Places to Chat
Little RantI
Chatterbox: Down to Earth
Little RantI
Little Rant
I'm sorta kinda really freaking depressed right now. I'm kinda putting it bluntly but I can't think of any other way to say it. I told my dad a few months ago, that it had gotten pretty serious (like really seriously one time but I don't want to talk about it) and he comforted me and said that I was an incredibly smart and kind person and I'm glad that we had that talk. But it hasn't helped and I want to get a psychiatrist or something but I don't want to ask them about it because I'm scared. And I don't know why I'm scared.
Another problem more CB and writing related: I can't seem to be able to write anymore. I don't want to further a plot because I'm worried it might ruin someone else's character and I feel like I make another's character seem less cool then they really are and I don't mean to! But even if I don't further the plot I still feel like I make another character seem less cool and I don't want people to dislike me because of this! I want to be nice to everyone but I always make stuff awkward.
Long Story Short: I'm a very Anxious person.
Sorry for throwing my problems at you guys, I just need to get it all off my chest. Thanks for reading all of this if you did.
submitted by Danie
(December 20, 2017 - 7:51 pm)
(December 20, 2017 - 7:51 pm)
Uummm... I'm not so good at helping others, and I'm a bit uncomfortable being the first to respond here, but I'd like to tell you and everyone else that I am here and I listen, even if I don't say it.
(December 20, 2017 - 10:32 pm)
(December 20, 2017 - 11:16 pm)
I'm so sorry that you feel this way! I can, however, present a pretty tough argument for the fact that you're a pretty dashboarding amazing person.
Point 1. You're a superb writer. And I'm not "just saying" that. I used to think, wow, Danie's so cool and Squeak is so funny, I wish I could write like that!
Support: Shadow RPG. 262 posts. When you were ten. Can't deny the facts!
Point 2. You aren't the only one who gets scared and anxious. Everyone does, so that doesn't make you any "lesser" then anyone else. Ever.
Support: Ummm...sometimes I just lie on my bed staring at my window berating myself for saying something I said like 5 years ago and coming to the conclusion that I'm a hateful person. Anxiety isn't logical. It's kind of a phobia of life in general, and more of a phobia of what other people think. Who cares what they think? *sticks out tongue* they're probably anxious about what YOU think too!
Point 3. Advancing the plot doesn't make other characters less cool (and if it seems to, do it anyway...)
Support: Absolutely any RP. Take Decepmyth for example. Was Squeak un-cool because he got turned into a mouse? Maybe, but it was funny. Okay, that wasn't good support. Ummm...it's not your job to make other characters cool. If they didn't like something you wrote about them, then they can just write their own POV of the events. Go ahead and advance the plot. The storyline will break the fourth wall and brave the tundra of sureality just to thank you for it.
(December 21, 2017 - 12:08 pm)
Thank you, both of you. Coyote, I understand and I'm grateful anyways. Rosebud, you're so sweet and that really brought up my day.
(December 21, 2017 - 1:14 pm)
1. Yes, you ARE an amazing writer, Danie. I can't tell you how many times I've read one of your posts for one of the RPs I'm in with you right now and been like, wow. I wish I could write like that.
2. You don't make stuff awkward, either, I promise!!
3. You could try talking to a friend about how you feel. It might be easier to talk to someone your own age who knows you really well, and cares for you. And don't forget-- all we CBers are here for support, and I think you're a really cool, fun person, and an awesome writer!
Sorry I just kind of blurt these things, but it really is what I think/feel... :)
(December 23, 2017 - 2:51 pm)
Me: Hey, watch this! I can hold the world in my hands!
MP: No, you can’t.
Me: (lifts Danie above my head) I’m not lying.
(December 23, 2017 - 2:27 pm)
@Aspen Aw, thanks! I appreciate the advice.
@Danie? I'm gonna assume you're Brookeira since you're using MP and probably just forgot the @, and in which case oh jeez, thanks!
(December 23, 2017 - 10:06 pm)
Ahh Danie...I totally understand. I'm not great at giving advice, but here's a couple things~
To Point 2: I can guarantee you that nobody is going to wake up one morning, get on their computer, and say "Oh dear, this person's interpretation of my character was so awful!" Unless they've made a really cliche charrie that has absolutely zero flexibility and room for development (in which case, it's on them) they will appreciate it to see different interpretations. Heck, in your case, they'll probably be thrilled! You are probably one of the most advanced writers on the CB currently, and nobody is going to be mad at you for using their character. And if you still feel uncertain about posting, you can write a long and complicated post of your own character's internal thoughts and struggles!
To Point 1: Depression and Anxiety....they really suck. That's the understatement of the century. Look, if you feel like you want a psychiatrist, you should ask. You should never have to feel like, "I can deal with this myself, asking for help makes me feel weak," or "People will judge me if I say I'm depressed," or anything along those lines. Because if getting a psychiatrist alleviates even some of your symptoms, it would be worth it. Asking for help does NOT make you weak.
As for short-term solutions, I don't know if any of my experiences are similar to yours, but it helps me to rant a lot on a piece of paper and hide it somewhere nobody will ever find it, and end the rants with some words of encouragement that I can look back on if things get really bad. It's not the perfect solution, but it helps.
(December 25, 2017 - 6:02 pm)
I don't really know how to help you specifically, but I want you to know that I am hoping the best for you even if I don't give advice.
(December 30, 2017 - 2:10 pm)