Chatterbox: Down to Earth

Math Update

*Takes a deep breath from the previous rant a few minutes ago* Oh, if you guys read my post I just made asking for help, well, let's just say I am going to pretend I didn't talk about that right now. Put on a semi-cheerful face and talk about math. Yep. Math. Ugh.

I wanted to update about math. As you guys probably remember, about a month ago, I said I was getting Mathusee, and I asked for serious advice how to handle my faults. You guys were spectacular, pulling me through. Well, a few days later, my new math came, and since you guys wanted me to keep you updated, here is what I think:

It's... different. I mean, frustrating. I feel like I am progressing, and I am only in the review. But it's slow going. Mathusee means perfection and mastery. I have to get 100% on each lesson (I have to do 1-2 a day), and I have to do the Honors. Honors I can get no less than 80% on, and tests, for now, are 90%-95%, although my mom said she might just make that 100% as well. Like I said, it's  only review. I go through a chapter a week, and it is frustrating because it means that if I miss even a single one, even for a tiny error of not paying attention, I have to redo all the ones I missed until I get it right.

Helpful?

Yeah. But I don't like it. Beats doing Khan Academy or Teaching Textbooks. The math itself isn't bad, I like how he teaches it (for now), but the way I have to do the assignments is getting too much. I mean, next year it is changing, I'll be doing a max amount of time, stopping regardless how much I got done. This will be much much much better. Until then, I trudge on. Again, I have to thank you all for the amazing support!

Seriously, I could not do it without you guys. I struggle with a lot of things, act as if I am superhuman strong in my skills, and pretend no one calls me out for it. Around here I feel so much more at ease. Partly because at the moment I only have two people - one, really - that I ever can talk to as friends. The one, in particular, is a great listener, but neither are often available to talk to. With family, I hear the same old things again. My outer family looks at me like I'm crazy, that I am lazy and just don't want to do math. No. They don't know my life. My parents understand that it is difficult, but now their big thing is, "You are in review, Ashlee. Seventh-grade math. Go redo it until you get it right" and so forth. Yeah. I don't need to hear it's seventh-grade math. Heard it my entire life. Now please stop.

So yeah... Glad I can talk to you guys. Thanks for all the support! And if you can't tell, I haven't been having the best day so far. Or week. Month. Year, even. Just counting down the days where I am on my own, so I can travel, get away from here. I am sick of this place, this state. I have a purpose to fulfill, making a change, and that can't happen as I am sitting in a nowhere place contemplating the fact that I can't do 7th-grade math.