Chatterbox: Down to Earth

First of all, I want to apologize.

I wasn't acting my best on the AE War thread. I was being a bit of a jerk, I think. It isn't really an excuse, but I will say I get carried away with debates. I get frustrated, I get mad, and I may have lashed out a bit without meaning to. Usually I keep my temper in check on the CB. In real life? Not so much.

But to be honest, truthfully and brutally honest, you all are making me sick.

One, I read the AE War thread. As I said before, I left because I got carried away, and I didn't want to go back because I knew I would just get even more carried away. But things got worse without me.

Mei, I wasn't being racist. I was saying I wasn't Chinese. I was saying that people can be of multiple races-- heck, I'm English, Irish, Italian, German, Native American, etc., etc., etc. Ghengis Khan was originally Mongolian, so I think of him as a Mongol. Later on, his decendants were Chinese and Mongolian. But, as other people have said, look at the Romans.

I say that not to spark another arguement but the resolve one. You interpreted a comment I meant to be innocent as something incredibly hostile and definitely not what I meant to say at all. I'm sorry you thought what you thought.

It looks like things got better on the AE thread, but some of those comments were horrible. A lot of you apologized. But some of you didn't, and the shortest comments can sometimes be the most hateful.

And then I went back on the CB today. Honestly, I was excited for my "Here goes" thread. Nobody likes the wars. I was happy when I saw so many posts. I thought maybe it was doing what it was supposed to be doing, you know? Stopping the war before it started.

And now here I'm going to point some fingers, and I'm sorry in advance.

Firstly, Maple. I know you're not going to read this, but I want to say it. Maybe you didn't like what Brooke was saying, but you could have phrased it in a much nicer way than how you did. It was cruel, desperately cruel, what you said.

Secondly, Novelist. Nova, you're a good friend of mine and I love you. But I meant what I said to you, and to see you go ahead and do it anyway was. . . not good in itself. And listen, you're a fantastic person, and I thought better of you. Those were some really hateful things to say to Mei. If you felt that way, you could have said it in a much better way. I understand that tempers get out of control, but as Owlgirl said, we need to step back and cool down. 

And thirdly, Mei. You're an amazing person. You're courageous and stubborn and have a lot of good traits. But it seems like you have a short temper. There's got to  be a saying somewhere about saying sorry and then not changing-- Mei, you have to change it, please. I state these all as facts, not as insults, but the CB's at a tipping edge and a little more aggression will make it fall. I simply ask that you read over your comments and ask yourself, If this was directed at me, how would I be feeling? And I don't mean this to be cheesy-- I'm absolutely serious. I was honestly offended by your comment that I was racist, Mei, and I'm sure I'm not the only one.

Please, guys, take a deep breath. We're being horrible to each other and that's not right. You don't need to put a sting into your words if a simple suggestion would suffice. These rude things we're saying to each other are making everything worse.

Before I get out of hand, I'm going to end this comment. You don't have to reply. In fact, it would be better if you didn't. But I wanted-- no, needed-- to say this, and let it be heard.

I'm sorry.

I'm going to press submit now.