I might as well start out by saying I'm Arabella. (If you've got the guts to come out with it, I will, too.)

I haven't even finished reading your post and I'm coming on to give you a massive hug over the Internet.

I know those feelings. I'm not depressed, but I have a rabid case of social anxiety (short explanation: social situations really freak me out and I feel so bad with people I'd rather just stay inside. I also worry excessively about what people think of me). I know the condition's different, but the horrid outlook on life your brain gives you every day - with depression, it's what's the point of getting out of bed?  and with anxiety, it's GET OUT OF BED! THINK OF ALL THAT WILL HAPPEN IF YOU DON'T! 

And all those feelings? Being hopelessly alone, nobody seems to understand you, utter confusion about romance, and then just thinking, oh, it's just my hormonal teenage brain? I've felt 'em.

Sure, it could be our brains, but even then? It's real as heck.

So. Sucky-mentality buddy coming on to say you're not alone. You will never be alone. And even though depression really really sucks and so does anxiety - you - and I - will always have the strength to pull through. I know it's insanely hard to do sometimes, but we just need to find enough of that strength to get to the next day, and the next. 

And who knows? Maybe one day we'll gather up the courage to get consultations, therapists, medications, and feel a whole lot better we did so. Maybe even that perfect person who understands us more than we understand ourselves will come along. Either way? Don't give up fighting.

I'm really really sorry if I come across as shallow or I have no grasp on how bad you're actually feeling. I just wanted to offer the small comfort I could. Best of luck to you and I hope you have a great day too. Heck, I hope you have a great life. Because anyone with brains that are constantly bashing them should know they're lovely people and are just as good as the rest, no matter what their minds say. <3

First of all, no matter how confusing, sad, or lonely your life feels, always remember that we're here for you, to give you a huge hug, and a warm blanket, and tell you that everything will be alright. 

*hugs*

Even though sometimes it feels like we're all just strangers, talking over the internet, we're not. We're all connected with each other, and we're all friends. And we're here for you. Truly, we are. Don't feel like what you want to tell us doesn't matter, or that no one cares. Because we do care.

Trust me, I've had it myself. So many times I've wanted to post something, and then thought, Oh, no one will want to read that. Why would they care? But we do. So come, and be petted and comforted. Remember that you aren't alone. You have us, and after all, you have your parents, and your teachers. Tell me. They care. They really do. And so do we. Nothing is petty and pointless if it concerns you. Really and truly.

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Sorry, none of that probably helped. But it was from the heart! 

The depression should go away. I think. I keep getting randomly depressed when everything is A-O.K, just because I don't have many friends.

I'm not being helpful. Never mind. 

Shh... (hugs) shh... (hugs harder) SHH...

I get it if you're depressed or feel that you don't fit in. That's the whole reason I took a six-month hiatus from the CB a while ago. But PLEASE don't do that!

Do you want to know a secret? You're probably my favorite CBer. Whenever I make a RP I always sit at the computer going, "come on, Danie, join, join, join-YES!"

Anyway, if you do leave, you aren't going to get to hear the blow-by-blow story of how I made my costume. Don't miss it! ;)

About the love issues: BACK OUT NOW WHILE YOU STILL CAN. JUNIOR HIGH AND HIGH SCHOOL RELATIONSHIPS ARE ACTUALLY HADES. TELL YOUR FRIENDS TO SHUT THEIR FACES.

And now, back to our scheduled programming.

Another thing: if you're anything like me, hormones are running rampant in you at the moment. This means that for a while you'll say, "eh, I'm fine," and then you'll say "UGH I HATE LIFE AT THE MOMENT," and then you'll say "eh, I'm fine."

STAY STRONG PAL 

Okay Danie, let's see your patronus. Tut tut, that's not good. Okay, think of something really, really, really, REALLY happy!!!! Like pie. 

Wildflower: Why pie?

Rose bud: It covers every catagory.  

Keep trying. Don't give in to the nasty dementors, got it? And by the way, we missed you so much. When I was just getting used to the CB, I followed half the RPs you were in.

Hmm...Danie? Yeah, she's cool. Ohhhh, this is how you RP! 

I'll tell you the heir to Decepmyth if you show me your patronus *crosses fingers behind back* 

Aw, thanks everyone. You guys made my day ^^ 

Danie, I understand that feeling. Don't worry. You're a great friend to us, and no amount of absence will change that. Anytime you need help we're here. I'll be praying for you!

P.S. Oh, hey, do you do camp nanowrimo? 

Heyyy, it's okay, If you don't think you fit in, l'm many times worse than that. l have a hard time connecting with people on here as well.

l can't really offer anything helpful in the way of advice, but look at it this way: Even though what you are going through may seem like the end, things will always get better, there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel. 

I've felt depressed before, and I know that it doesn't feel good. What has always helped me is to talk to my parents about it, and they can help me work it out. So, maybe try that. I'm not really sure what else to say, but...

I hope that you cheer up soon.

Yes, I agree with you about the romance. Random note: why don't schools have courts? Like, in the school? I mean, I would love to get a few people I once knew into court...