Honestly, Scylla, I don't see anything wrong with that. When you first got here, I admired how quickly you asserted yourself and how outspoken you were and how you next to never backed down. I still do.

I'm not really sure what you mean by "I can't control it." You're changing. We all do, especially as we start becoming teenagers. Two years ago, I used to be a total chatterbox (heh), and now I hardly speak at all. There's no problem with that. If you don't like who you're changing into, then make an effort to change into something else, but I think it's good to be less doormat-ish.

And as for the unpredictability, that just makes you harder to hit. =) 

I'm such a doormat. You don't know how many times I've decided to not post something. Like how I deleted half this post and typed something else. I really want to be a different person, like, a brave person who speaks up for something she cares for. Oh, well. Looks like somebody needs to soak this doormat in some water and leave me in the sun to toughen me up. 

I am the same way, just in the opposite direction. Being strong and authorative is good! I would give anything not to be so awkward and shy like I am now. I love the CB, because on here I can talk about my boring problems and people care. I hope it helps me to become stronger and more outgoing like you.

You are strong.

That's one of the best things to be. 

But

Always when I think about you, I think of how much character you have, and I want to be like that. I feel like I have no personality at all on the CB. I change too much.

At least you know you are authorative. You are like a port in a storm. I know you think you're uncertain, but to me you are the thing that remains the same.

As for being unpredictable, it's like HAB said. 

I think you're just doubting yourself.

Think about who you are. Drink some hot tea. Make a list of your character traits. This will help. 

Oh, Scylla. That's what the CB is here for. To help us grow up in a safe enviroment where we won't be critized for growing up in our own way.

It's a refuge. A safe house. A place to stay and call home. It's not easy growing up, but this is the best place to do it.

*hugs* 

Yeah, I kinda of get what you mean- the weird moments where you just feel irritable and uncomfortble and aren't always the greatest to others. I promised myself that I'd never become a moody, stereo-typical teen, but I'm doing just that.

I'm not saying that YOU are this way, I'm saying that I'M this way. I could see how this might be offensive, sorry!