Chatterbox: Down to Earth

Hi peoples!

So, I haven't exactly been gone (I look in whenever I remember to see what's up), but I also haven't posted anything non-Inkwell in a while. Meaning probably more than two months, if I think about it. And not a lot on Inkwell, either, now I come to think of it too. Which is crazy, because I kept meaning to say things, to comment on all your awesome thoughts and ideas and plans, to be a part of the CB proper instead of my usual hanger-on self who never seems to get around to actually saying anything . . . except I kept forgetting.

I forgot how amazing you all are, forgot that all I had to do was say one thing and I'd be back, forgot how easy it is to forget that if I don't say anything then to you it's like I'm not even here -- even though I am and I just keep on not talking.

And I don't really know why, except that I think I thought I was waiting for something, waiting for the perfect moment to step out of the shadows and say that I was back -- and maybe I thought because it would be the perfect moment it would all be cool and suddenly the CB would feel right again (because I think I also felt a bit like the CB wasn't right anymore, without all the oldies that I secretly thought were awesome, but that was ridiculous because the CB has never been not right, just being awesome in a different way now, and every day it's different but it's still amazing because you're all still amazing people, and I just couldn't get my head around that until now, I think). I thought that if I picked the right moment, that if I waited for some mysterious sign that certainly couldn't be now, you know, that'd just be ridiculous that the only time to ever do something is now, then I'd feel like I was part of the CB again, but I can't be part of the CB if I never say anything . . . . so yeah. I'm back, I think. And if those last two run-on sentences made absolutely no sense, you can just ignore them and put it down to the fact that it's late and I'm a bit sick and I've decided not to delete them because the whole point of them was to get me to get around to doing this and actually being here and saying things that I want to say without feeling held back because of feeling like I'm not part of the CB anymore.

P.S. I've turned fifteen in the last few months that I haven't said anything here. I hope that doesn't make me too old (or too much of a stranger) to come back.