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If I runIf
If I run
If I cry
I don't want you
To wonder why
When I try to say the word,
The first part
CAN
Comes out alright
But the last part
Is a strangled cry
The C is a sob
The E is a tear
The R is a mess of fear.
The fear is when
I come home
And I hope
And I hope
That no one has to tell me
"She's gone."
submitted by I'll stay anonymous, age my age, My Location
(September 13, 2017 - 12:15 am)
(September 13, 2017 - 12:15 am)
I'm so sorry.
And I know
those words may seem
e m p t y
but
I really
am.
I know
how hard
it is
when you're afraid
you're going to
lose
someone you love.
But hold on
keep holding on.
Don't give up hope.
We're
here
always
if you need to
talk
rant
cry.
We'll be
here.
<3
(September 13, 2017 - 8:29 am)
(September 13, 2017 - 10:53 pm)
*Sobbing for you*. I am so sorry, and I know that those words cannot begin to help, but I really, truly, am. I hope that she is going to be okay.
(September 14, 2017 - 8:38 am)
Kitten is right. Words cannot even begin to help. Leeli is also right when she says that we'll be here for you. I remember when one of my close family members got diagnosed with it also. There is no feeling to describe the helplessnes, and pain you are overcome with. Words of advice: Keep your loved ones close, and hold on to your hope. I'll be praying.
Please remember that cancer treatment is getting better and better all the time. Many people are treated and go on to live long, productive lives. I don't know the specifics of the case you mention, but it helps to focus on the brighter side. I know a someone who had part of a lung removed over 20 years ago, and is now approaching age 90, still traveling the world and enjoying life.
Admin
(September 14, 2017 - 6:44 pm)
Sorry, 'I'll stay anonymous' and Admins. I did'nt mean to convey any feelings of ' this is the end'. That post did not come out as I had intended. I had tried to say that I knew what you were going through, from personal experience. Instead,I made it seem like there was no chance. The Admins were also right when they say that lots of people make it through cancer, and continue on with thier lives. There is a very good reason and chance that whoever 'she' is, will live.
Again, sorry if I made you feel worse, and I'll follow the Admins advice and try to stay on the positive side of things when I write.
(September 15, 2017 - 4:48 pm)
words begin to lose meaning
in this boundless
territory of emotions
im so sorry
but i cant say
words lose meaning here
(September 14, 2017 - 8:40 pm)
Oh, anonymous, I am so, so, sorry.
But I'm going to tell you a small something about a person in my family which might give you a little hope.
He had cancer four times.
He battled it off three of them.
He got cancer because he smoked and kept smoking. I don't know what sort of cancer your person has, but remember: there is a chance. If they keep fighting, they can survive. They can.
And even if they don't . . . they fought as hard as they could. And everyone did what they could for them until the last. I send all my hopes and wishes to your person, and the best of luck.
(September 14, 2017 - 7:34 pm)
Aww, I am so sorry, anonymous. Cancer is an awful thing, as are all diseases, and I want you to know we are here. Words cannot describe or comfort in all totality, but I can try. You know, I have this woman I work for, and she's been battling cancer for some time. She's a strong one, and even though the odds aren't pretty, you know what she just left to do? Went with her husband on a five day fishing trip. She was hopeful and bright, enjoying her time with family. You know, I feel that this person in your life will be okay, she'll be okay. Even if things don't go as hoped, you know she lived a fantastic life. We all have our times, and it isn't always pretty, but life is like a river. It moves, it changes, shapes a course through history. As the 11th Doctor said, "In 900 years of Time and Space I've never met anyone who wasn't important."
She is important.
That one person has impacted history forever. If you went back and changed her history (and remember, as sad as it is, this was meant to happen), then the entire universe would change. That woman who she helped cross the road might have been hit. That homeless man she gave money to might have spent another day hungry. That child she raised became a beautiful, beautiful person (I am assuming she's an adult, so forgive me if this is false). Yeah, there was more out there. But everything happens for a reason. I feel this was supposed to happen. If I read that poem correctly as she is still alive but it was announced recently (forgive me if I read that wrong), then I pray she will stay strong.
I've had a lot of experience with cancer. Neighbors, family, friends of family. Yeah, they don't always make it, I know that. It's scary. But sometimes they do. My grandma alone has had cancer many times. So has my great aunt. Yet here they stand, happy, healthy, and well. They survived. I know she will to. Stay strong, stay strong my friend. I will be thinking about you guys! *Hugs*
(September 14, 2017 - 10:15 pm)
Not to be rude, but this wasn't meant to happen.
I'm sorry if this seems offensive or anything, its just that I don't like it when people say things like that. "Everything is meant to happen." "Things all happen for a reason." I believe that God controls everything. He doesn't cause bad things to happen, but instead, he works them for good. And he will work this for good, I promise. Somehow he will. Whatever happens.
But no, this was not meant to happen. I don't see how it's helpful to anyone to say, "This was meant to happen." We don't know why some things happen and others don't. It's a confusing and touchy subject.
Again, I'm sorry if this was hurtful in any way, I definitely didn't mean it that way.
(September 15, 2017 - 10:43 am)
Nope, I totally understand your view! While I do also agree that God works for the good, I still do feel some things are just... meant to be. But that doesn't mean He won't make this turn out good, for I really feel she will be okay in the end. I kinda meant that it's kind of a lesson (not punishment, but a good moral lesson) where she and her family learn something important, it changes their life for good. Like learning to appreciate life more, or being more caring, or living life slowly, etc.
Sorry for any confusion there! I didn't mean for it to come across as rude or something in my main comment (or here, of course!).
(September 15, 2017 - 10:38 pm)
Okay, I see what you meant. I do think that some things were meant to be, but not in a "God makes everything happen, even bad things" way. I don't think God made it happen, but I'm sure he will work it for good, whether that means teaching a lesson through it or something else.
And no, you didn't seem rude at all! I hope I didn't seem rude either.
(September 16, 2017 - 8:28 am)
Whew, okay, glad that is cleared! Nope, you didn't seem rude at all. Yep, I am quite hopeful that he will work it for good in the end process.
(September 18, 2017 - 1:39 pm)
Cancer.
One in five people
One in five people know or are a cancer patient
That is NOT a reassuring statistic.
My life has been affected
Her life has been affected
Even my piano teacher's life has been affected.
One day
One day I will take pleasure in stomping all over that ugly word
All over it.
And all the people who come home afraid
All the people who survived
1 in five and so many more
Will one day stomp all over that ugly word.
~
I don't know what to say, and I know this is never enough but - I'm sorry.
Just remember, and I know this is no comfort when you are dealing with this...We are close to having effective treatment for all cancers, and there are many new treatments underway. Just last week I read about a new breakthrough in treating Leukemia using gene therapy and brain cancer using a mutated version of the Zika virus. Just remember, there are always new treatments under way, new options.
Don't lose hope. Spend time with her and let her know you will be there for her and you love her. No matter what happens, your family will be here for you, your friends will be here for you, and we will be here for you.
(September 15, 2017 - 10:43 am)
Wait, they did what? *rereads* That's incredible, that someone found a way to turn the Zika virus into a treatment for another disease. Talk about a silver lining...
(September 16, 2017 - 4:27 pm)
Oh, I am so sorry. I can't offer enough words or anything that could ever completely heal your pain. But I will try to comfort you, and help you.
I understand what you are going through. Several of my family members have had cancer. The pain and sadness you are feeling must be overwhelming right now. But there is one thing you can count on: hope and faith.
I know that I may sound like a broken record and you've probably read this before on, let's say, a card, but hope and faith are so important. If you have hope that she will get better and faith in God that He can make things better, then you'll not only feel comforted, but you'll feel more confident that it'll turn out for the better. I know God and that He has a way of making beauty from the pain. Trust that He is there for you and loves you and the person close to you who has cancer so much. You can also ask God to help guide the doctors to do what is necessary to help your loved one. Not to mention that different treatments and medicines are getting better, and that they are working a lot.
Please don't give up. Please. We all love you and will support you. So please stay. <3
(September 16, 2017 - 9:45 am)